imperfect

emo

2011-08-09T23:16:00.002+08:00

i dunno is that our gap or anything. Why?

I nvr expect u b as sentimental as me. but why u wan make me feel that wat i feel is nice n precious is ntg for u? Why even jz a love shape thingy oso u cn got diff opinion?

love n Arse are way diff.. o u jz mean n dun plan to b romance to me?

i dun like when pov clash. bcoz sure lead to argue. but if i stfu, den i will feel bad. ish

the fear

2011-08-09T18:15:00.004+08:00

Ya. i m in fear right now. fear that i can take no more. fear tat i will go insane. fear tat i might bek to d horrible time. i m confused. i m sad. drop deeply in the pain tat no1 can help me.

i m cowardiac but once n once i try to take the pain. but this time i cant control myself. i hate thinkin bek d past. but i went bek to the deep and dark horror past. i cant stop myself from emo n sad. who is there for me? last time i m ur fear, n now still i m ur obstacle. actually m i wrong to even appear in ur life? karma? ya. karma exists. n tat is wat i deserve.
Ya. i m in fear right now. i m confused. i m sad. drop deeply in the pain tat no1 can help me.

i m cowardiac but once n once i try to take the pain. but this time i cant control myself. i hate thinkin bek d past. but i went bek to the deep and dark horror past. i cant stop myself from emo n sad. who is there for me? last time i m ur fear, n now still i m ur obstacle. actually m i wrong to even appear in ur life? karma? ya. karma exists. n tat is wat i deserve.

a.g.o.n.y

2011-08-09T18:10:00.001+08:00

Just to make it clear
To you my dear
it’s been a year
she’s all i fear
She has made my life
Miserable and despair
I’ve been waiting
for the right time to disembark
leaving behind memories
that hurts every thought
leaving away something
that wasnt worth bought
she made me felt
the agony of love
she made me felt
like fighting cocks rather a pair of dove
the more she feared
the more she lose
and thus she lost sekaligus
baby you..
cannot replace her
because she’s not worth that much
once i overlooked all her negativities
in the name of love
but at last i gave up
and realized i’m not that tough
but just as u appeared
everyone thought
that you were the one
who destroyed this love
but no one knows
that i already planned to leave
just like a timed departure
it’s just that the train arrived earlier

for everytime i read this. i feel d ache.
but did u care?

drowned

2011-07-01T21:49:00.001+08:00

y u would be d 1 pull me up n push me down again?

why?

wat is so wrong about me till i dun deserve wat i wan?

m i jz so not worthy for u?

i m just a normal gal askin for the most normal n basic things..

the 8th month

2011-06-20T23:05:00.003+08:00

all the while my blog posts are emo. and today i goin make a slightly difference. most of the time i complain and said u bully me, but still u never leave me.

here we are, the 8th month. I really appreciate it bcoz u bek in klang this time. all the while i care whether r u here on this special date. everytime when u cant make it i will start to whine and lead to argument. ya. i m selfish and din think much for u. i alwiz wan to get wat i wan, without thinkin for u.

as usual i m a daydreamer. and today u gave me d scane that i alwiz watch on drama. candlelight dinner. i am 23 tis year but this is d first time i had candlelight dinner, and it is wit u. hubby, reli thanks for it. I dunno wat to say but i feel damn touched. i m glad u r here in my life, altho we alwiz argue over small thing due to my ego, but i nvr mean to hurt u. If i can make a wish, i will jz hope walk till the end of my life wit ur companion.

be wit me. i love u.

No again

2011-05-21T22:32:00.003+08:00

this time he nt only reject me but ice cream as well. if he reli dun fancy of icecream den please dun let me see the pictures of the past.

I would only feel down to noe that u can tolerate wit her even u dun like, but reject me when i asked. and yet still wanna tell me that u wont eat icecream wit any1 anymore. u noe wat u mean by ur sentence? it sounds like only she can make u change n try d icecream even u dun like it. but u wont do the same for me.

u alwiz think i wan u do exactly the same wat u did to her. it is not wat u did, is the heart. Just dun make me feel u used to sacrifice alot for the past but u refused to be for now. ya. i m regret. to read the blog. i shud have not read it so i wont noe how sweet u two were. n how much u did for her.

which gal dun like ice cream? y u can be considerate and join her but ask me to find gal frens to go eat tat? u can reject but why u nid to make it sound like she is d special one for u so u would try but can turn me down directly? cant u gimme some dignity?

guessed that this scene just would nvr happen for me. not even in dream. how sweet when a couple can take a pic like tis. n u tell me wat? BF that would acc gf for ice cream and eat that tgt is not sissy, but they are man. just a bite will do. is the joyness of sharing. who dun like to share their fav thing wit the loved one? how am i goin to share since u just seem like dislike my fav thing?

u alwiz say i m demandin and never get enough. but u nvr und how much i will giv away jz for u. u dun like icecream? fine, i can stop it too. but can u just dun make me feel u will only try for her? Alot things i dun like but still i try to accept. that is d diff btw us, i dun like anythin bout u o ur hobby i will try to accept, but if u dun like den u will only give me A BIG NO.

u cant ctrl ur ego den u expect i can ctrl mine? i m arrogant n ego too. how can u expect i throw mine away whenever u kip reject me? i have to take rejection yet noe i m ntg to make u to tolerate wit me.

sorry my dear icecream. Seem like i have to cut down my addiction to u. I knew u r d best thing for me whenever i feel emo o stressed. but i hope more on sharing the same thing wit him. so when i am wit him, den i nid folo his taste. so i think i cant order that when out wit him. since he dun like n i dun think i like to sit thr n eat alone while lookin at him. how nice it would be if he can join me.

ya.. Elene.. NO MORE ICE CREAM for u.

for u, u alwiz think i wanna replace her. i jz wan u wipe her off. u did too much for her, n i would feel i am ntg. i nt imitating her either. i just reli like icecream. so u think wat? i followed her den u would do d same. HOLYCRAP. i just duwan u make her special in ur mind o heart. i will jealous.

it is not never enuf. i saw wat u did n i felt touched too. but why after i feel touched u wanna say smtg tat would make me feel things still d same? why after all still make me feel i cant beat the past?

alwiz i choose to fight, but d outcome is d same. I will be the 1 changing n giv up on wat i wan. I wish i m nt naive oso. den i can be realistic n practical. Did u ever see my effort den?

i m the idiot.

2011-05-16T16:56:00.002+08:00

Isn't tat i already said i will never hope for anythin anymore?
Shud have noe d date dun mean much for u,
y even i knew u got class on fri
still i hope u will bek at here for me?
by d moment u say u wont bek
d heart feel so sour
n tears roll down.

till last, still u wont cum bek for me on d date.

all these are in expectations, but y m i still feelin sad?
i hope n pray,
but it dun cum true.
LOA? it jz fkin dun work.
u r mean to me.

p/s: i hate when i cry like a kid, esp when it is bcoz of u.

why

2011-05-14T10:47:00.002+08:00

Why izzit still d same after so long?
why i dun even hav d right to talk?
why u can nvr und wat i feel?
why u dun giv a damn to wat i wan?
why even after i try so hard still u r stingy to giv me wat i wan?
what i ask is nt a hard thing o over for u,
it is jz the most ordinary thing every gal will ever ask.
but why u wan accuse me for demanding?
m i jz not worth for anything after all?
why till now still u wan hurt me?
why tellin me tis n tat?
gettin regret? after i try everythin, regret is d only word u can giv me?

pray

2010-10-12T16:32:00.002+08:00

birthday passed d.. not a very grand 1 but a special 1. not gonna to blog bout it over here. bcoz i wish to see tat in another blog. of cos i hope it is nt written by myself as well. hoping for miracle??

prayin hard. May god bless my family esp my dad. hope everything will b fine. please. *finger-cross*

emo swing

2010-10-07T15:00:00.003+08:00

i think u wont read this blog before my bday. so i can write at here... u ask me dun tell u wat i wan.. i nvr plan tellin u also. bcoz i knew even i tell u cant make it...

wat i wn?
i wan to b like last time.. u celeb my bday wit me in BBQ plaza..
i wan to go chilli's restaurant to hav a try...
i wan to hear u singing happy birthday song for me..
i wan to eat ice cream wit u..
i wan a nice sweet bday blog entry wit sweet pics..
i wan u by my side...

u said BBQ plaza is nt nice, chilli's is expensive, u dun eat sweet things... ur rejections.. just so mean to me..

i knew y u duwan.. bcoz u did all tis wit her... u went bbq plaza n chilli's wit her.. brought her for icecream n choc..

can i cry?

game over?

2010-10-05T01:09:00.001+08:00

End of semester break = Game over?

hopefully, this time i will b wrong in this guessing game..

GUdbye to misery life?

2010-09-23T00:57:00.002+08:00

seem like my blog is dead for so long. i m jz so not in mood to update anything or perhaps my life is just too dull, so i got nothing special that i could update here..

went a short trip wit f6 frens to sepang last 2 weeks. it was nice n relaxing. how i wish i can b there alwiz...

i duno y.. but i knew for those who noe wat is goin on, for sure they will say me noob. ya. i dunno y i will go bek to d same person tat ever hurt me. i should stay far from him o as well ignore him but i jz cant make it. haiz. i knew love is better to leave broken den forcing ourselves to make it bek together. i duno. chance has been given, can i see wat i wn? nope.. i jz kip feel down.. i duno y m i giving myself hope while i noe i will b despair soon.. god.. lead me out of d misery life pls..

if i m reli important to u, u should be able show me it to me. But i cant see.. izzit bcoz i m blind? o u jz too stingy to show it to me?

颜色

2010-08-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

你喜欢白色

而我只钟情于紫色

在光学里，

白色是由七种颜色组成的

红，橙，黄，绿，蓝，靛，紫

所以你不会为了紫色而停下脚步

红色的你

充满了危险性

再温和的你

也有暴怒的时候

生气的你

不多话，不理人

让人手足无措

橙色的你

就像阳光般暖和

听着你的安抚

看着你的微笑

烦恼似乎都不见了

难道你的笑带有魔法？

黄色的你

偶尔扮演着一语惊醒梦中人的角色

就像交通灯的黄色

一闪一闪地警惕着路人

在我迷惑时

你为我照明四周

让我走出迷惘

绿色的你

就像绿色植物般养眼

你温和的语气

让人与你在交谈时感到舒服

也许你就像大树般

散发出让人觉得可靠的感觉吧

蓝色的你

无论是度量还是学识

都像天空般的广阔

你看得很远

从不优柔寡断

在你的面前

我就像是个自找烦恼的小孩

靛色的你

偶然散发出神秘感

想一一的探讨

却裹足不前

因为害怕在搜索的过程中误踩地雷

紫色的你

是我没见过的

那会是罗曼蒂克的你吗？

也许紫色对于白色而言

只是一个

稍闪即逝的过客

守护天使?

2010-08-12T07:23:00.002+08:00

以为是守护天使的他不见了。。。

累

2010-07-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

It's u purposely wanna get things tat u cant get

这是朋友对我说的话。是真的吗？我不知道，是自己好高骛远吗？我并不贪心，我只是想追求最好的。。。

累了，想休息了。。所有的不如意都挥不去，怎么办？

最后的尝试，如果你没发现，那我就放弃了。。。

好累了，不想再一旁继续等待，所以我总是成为主动的那个。。。

但是我累了，不想再主动了。。。

如果我不找你而你不会来找我，那我算知道你的答案了

也许对你而言，我只是一个在普通不过的朋友。。。

我不坚强，我好累。。。。

090710

2010-07-09T21:38:00.004+08:00

wat is so special bout today ler?? LOL.. 1st time i used d kitchen in my hse n complete a dish totally by my own.. haha.. actually ntg much... just tat i woke up early in d morning.. SNEAKED into d kitchen n prepared that when my mum was out for exercise...

ya.. today is her birthday.. in my mind, when i was stil a child.. mum used to cook me d "Sweet mee sua" on my birthday... but i nvr see her eating tat on her own birthday... n so i decided to cook her tat.. a simple food but way to show my appreciation to her.. lol...

as expected when she got bek, she just asked m i too free?? HMPH!! but still she finished tat.. i knew it would not taste nicer den her cooking.. but just i felt nice when i saw her eating tat... should b quite long tat she nvr eat tat on her birthday d ba? she alwiz b d 1 tat prepare everythin for us..

Mummy.... Happie birthday!! wish ya stay healthy n pretty alwiz!!

i heartz ya.. (altho i alwiz being notty in front of u)

mission impossible...

2010-07-02T16:40:00.002+08:00

can i tranform tis to sumting tat i wanna make??

challenge mode: ON

wish tat i could make it.....

currently havin busy life.. piles of jobs all cum together... haiz.. when only i can finish it?

Nuffnang~~

2010-06-25T19:57:00.002+08:00

today i just got an email from Nuffnang, the content is:

This is to inform you that banners for a Durex campaign will be running on your blog from 28th June onwards. The ad campaign has sexual health related content and may be offensive to some. Your blog was selected based on the age and blog content filters in our system.

well, for me i m ok wit it.. how bout u all?? if u all feel it might be offensive to u when u view my blog.. mayb u can pm me.. so i will deactivate it for u.. =)

update soon...

need or want?

2010-06-24T20:03:00.002+08:00

i m being so lazy and busy lately... so my blog is so dead... haix

this semester reli is a hectic sem.. i feel tired n tensed up.. but no1 is here for me... i dun reli askin much, jz hope tat there is sum1 b there for me.. listen to me when i m down.. but seem like no1 is doin so... sigh..

havin 3 midterm tis week.. which is killin me.. i reli cant make it..

things alwiz change.... why m i so stupid to think everythin wil remain d same? everythin is changing... i m d only 1 tat dunno only.. sienz...

If u need me but duwan me, that is when I'll stay.

However, if u wan me but no longer need me, that's when I'll leave.

but how if u duwan n dunit me at all? ADIOS BERAMBUS me...

忘记

2010-05-31T17:39:00.001+08:00

墙上的钟滴答滴答地走着

窗外的雨哗啦哗啦地下着

时间一分一秒的流逝

雨势却不曾减弱……

紧握拳头的手

不急不缓地

渗出鲜红的血液

狭小的房间里

瞬间充满血腥味…

而我

从镜子里

看见自己的倒影

一副皮笑肉不笑的样子

原本只想以捶打墙壁来发泄

但却因用力过度

而受伤了…

而,

墙上也印上一个个血印…

但,

为何身体所承受的痛

竟远远不及心灵上的痛?

这真的是你想要的吗?

一直以来

你都知道我心系于你

可是你却选择假装不知道

一直与我处于暧昧阶段

我不介意

因为我以为

只要能陪在你身边就足够了

远近都不重要

是因为人的贪念吗?

还是因为我每看你一眼

想把你留在身边的念头

就越强烈?

渐渐的,

我不再满于现状

既然

我知道我和你是没有可能的

我也不想强求

而唯有退而求其次

努力和你保持距离

不想让自己越陷越深

希望选择了忘记的我

能让自己好过

让思绪回归平复…

:+: 紫雁:+:

left out

2010-05-25T02:22:00.003+08:00

I'm the one tat choose to leave

I'm the one tat being left out??

single o double?

2010-05-24T11:22:00.002+08:00

if love can be measured, can v ever know the value of it?

Wondering all the while.. actually it is easy to start a new relationship, the hard part is to maintain it.. sometimes i jz feel tat to start n leave a relationship is so dramatically, or very easy as tho there is just an ON or OFF button for it. As long as u can find d button den u got it! the disadvantage is v could hardly find the button of "AUTO". if u guys did use any electrical appliances, den u should know the function of tat AUTO button. ya.. once the food is done cooking, by switchin to the auto condition, it will help u kip warm o took cook it again when it is cool.. so if v can find this button in love, den v can maintain love easily.. but it is hard .. =(

so,

we don't need some1 to make us whole, is better to stay single than being together den getting miserable and frustated...

dun love for a reason.. let the reason be love..

fever on ip man?

2010-05-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

ya, this time i was kinda slow.. slow in updating myself to new movies n also towards my blog...

IP MAN 2 was so chun..

n i jz love it..

i love IP MAN aka Donnie Yen..

i love tis scene too...

last but not least....

HE IS JUST RELI YENG!!

CHUN!!

Year 2 3rd SeM

2010-05-06T16:51:00.002+08:00

yeap.. i m alr in my year 2 3rd sem rite now.. so fast? another 2 more sem den i will b doin my intern.. den i can graduate jor..

wat i wanna do after tat? further study? i m nt tat smart.. work? can i get d job tat i like??

i duno wat i wanto be...

i m jz tired..

过客

2010-05-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

一直以来

小心翼翼的

不去触碰裂痕

天真的以为

时间会冲淡一切

可是

裂痕还是存在的

越是刻意地忽视它

它越是深深的烙印在你心里

曾经的友情

随风而散

无力挽留

没能挽留

即使想挽留

应该只会是

热脸贴着冷屁股

的尴尬场面吧

不想自讨没趣

人生旅途中

人来人往

我曾想珍惜你

但你选择做个过客

来来往往

往往来来

何去何从？

random

2010-04-12T14:47:00.000+08:00

宁可孤单一个人，

也不愿自己委屈就全；

宁可学会独自承担，

也不愿再依赖任何人；

宁可有悲观的想法，

也不想对任何事抱有太大的希望，

宁可学会放手，

也不愿再被人放弃；

宁可自私一点，

也不想再让任何人伤害...

不知足

2010-03-02T01:05:00.001+08:00

昔日的我

很单纯, 很幼稚

现在的我

较情绪化…

但唯一没变的是

我还是那么容易流泪

只是对哭的见解不一样了

以前的我认为哭是懦弱的行为

现在的我却认为

不能哭的人比常哭的人还要痛苦

因为哭能解放心里的压力及悲哀

但是我心里却有份遗憾

因为往昔的我,

比现在的我大方, 疑心较少

虽然现在的我长大, 学着成熟了

但我却比以往小气, 疑心重

难道人在得到一样东西后,

就会失去了另一样东西吗?

我试着找回以往的天真, 大方

却找不回…

也许,

人越想得到一样东西

就越会失去它…

* * * *

其实每个人的生命都会有遗憾

为了让沉重的生活变得轻盈

只有不让自己与那些缺憾正面相对

所以不是每一次的逃避都是因为懦弱

* * * *

针未抵达最深处

不知觉的痛得以证明

付出的只是霎那的深情

不足以成立任何内心曾经的承诺

唯有

让它一一成为过去

然后渐渐消失

现在的我

只想学习仙人掌

为自己筑起一座堡垒

在别人伤害我之前先保护自己

提醒自己

其实我是个幸福的人

只是不知足

~紫雁~

累

2010-03-02T00:42:00.001+08:00

有心却无力

有泪却不能流

有口却说不出声

原来

我一直高估自己

把手放开原来不简单。。。

舍得，舍得

有舍才有得

我不舍的话

你哪来的得？

我真的真的好累。。。

不变的仍然是

当我开始依赖某个人时

那人都会离我而去。。。

无奈。。。

dong dong qiang!!

2010-02-09T10:29:00.003+08:00

weeeeeee....

here i m again....

yaaaa.. CNY is coming..

but wth i gt a test on tml, where i din study at all yet..

god aaaaaa......

willl burn mid9 oil tonite den i m free to enjoy my 1 week holiday jor..

n.. i went for nail art... hahaa.. ya.. for cny...

blur?? perhaps tis 1 is better...

i m so so in d holiday mood!!

will update again once i gt d time.. LOL

i m so LOST!!

2010-01-21T21:38:00.003+08:00

m i being too mean?

i dun think i m..

i m jz treating u all wit d ways u guys used to treat me..

i wanna b gud to u guys too..

but how u all response??

as tho i m an outsider..

u guys jz being unfair...

y things seem so diff?

bias...

is d only word tat i can think of...

i duwan to b mean to u all.. but..

how m i goin b gud to u when i knew u all like to talk behind me?

ya,

call me petty den!

darknesssss

2010-01-13T23:10:00.002+08:00

sob... i think.. i was not in a vy good luck month or year... sigh.. planned a so called surprise but end up tak jadi... everything is done d, but a problem just sud pop out den everything gone... i just cant defeat d destiny o fate?? i jz wish tat i m able to give a lil surprise to a fren.. yet tak jadi also.. useless me?? sigh... feelin down all the while... i can only kip d plan till next time d... sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

missing a friend...

2010-01-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

i found out tat everytime when i was down. i feel like talkin to you..

as tho u r d only 1 tat will understand wat m i goin to tell...

as tho only u r d only 1 tat i can trust

as tho u r d 1 tat ale to cheer me up...

i miss u alots... hope u r doin fine... take care...

PISSED!

2009-12-28T02:52:00.001+08:00

i dun like to wait..
i f*ckin hate waiting..

n today.. i waited for 30mins w/o bein informed. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

m i losing temper over small thing? =(

xmas fever?

2009-12-21T18:08:00.001+08:00

everyone is busy planning for xmas, rite?
hmmm.. i feel like joining my fren's party but too bad i cant make it...
argh... wat to do? alr agreed on another bunch of frens earlier..

internhsip goin to finish... ntg special reli happen.. life still tat bored.

where r u, santa claus?
i wan a white xmas laaaaaa

26/11

2009-11-26T10:51:00.004+08:00

i m still emo as alwiz.
i cant solve d probs tat i m facing,
but can only accept it.
i dunno wat i can do thus i decided not to do anything.
i can only hope for d best.
god.. if u can hear me.. pls help me..

since my mood is so moody all the while..
i found tat i can only be cheerful when i talked to some of my frens tat i can trust.
n my mood becum better when i watched d korean drama,
yeap. i watched d BOYS OVER FLOWERs, over n over again..
but still dun get bored..
watching the cute gal n those yummy boys and also d storyline... i smiled.

i dun ask much, but i jz hope things get better pls...

WtF

2009-11-14T14:25:00.004+08:00

FRIENd stands foR??

ya.. tis is wat so called FREN will do..
stabbing u without ur notification..

i m sick of tis... y i will think for u but u jz nvr put me into d consideration??

sorry to be rude... but... tis time.. jz bear wit me.. WTF... wat the hell r u thinkin.. u bitch!! i fucking hate d life now.. tis is how u treat fren.. i SHALL remember...

i m reli tired..
i lose d sense of judging...
i dunno wat is fren anymore...
i fucking hate crying...
but y m i alwiz doin tat??
i wish for a shoulder...
who will be my crying shoulder?

only me

2009-11-09T02:16:00.004+08:00

blog is dead

due to my laziness...

ARGH!!!

havin my holidays now...

but i m doin my internship as well..

so equal to no holz.

recently i m so addicted to korean drama.. hehe

DANG DANG!!

i knew it is not new released.. haha.. but i jz love it...

i m so into lee min ho n kim hyun joong!!

chun!!

missing...

2009-10-26T12:09:00.000+08:00

-missing u is signing off-

- tWenTy oNe -

2009-10-23T23:35:00.005+08:00

well.. finally i m 21 officially...

come, let's see wat I can do now..

CASINO here i cum...

i m not sum1 tat tend to gamble, but i jz wan to go in to tat place...

n tis time i wont b hearing d indian women tellin me

" bulan sepuluh baru datang lagi"

HMPH.. CHECK my IC laaaaa.. blekkkk

okie... summo wat ler?? can vote??

LOL.. i m on d fence for those political thingys..

so tis is not something ta make me feel exciting also...

21.. den i can enter zouk?

LOL.. o some clubs which d age limit??

WAKAKKAKAAA... tis is so exciting??

i can tell my mum.. 21 d la.. i can go CLUB...

but will my stubborn dad allow me to do so??

hmmm...

okie.. that is enough for my craziness.. 21 so?? nothing diff also.. life still goes on, exam still comin, tonnes of works n my emo-ness nvr fade...BUT being 21 jz like stepping into another chapter of my life.. somehow, somewhere, somewhen it jz indicating i m no longer a child.
I M NOT A KID ANYMORE!!

tis is wat i got from my mummy as present. followin d tradition, i got a key from my mum on my bday. a pendant of key.. LOL.. i lub it.. cute n nice... but what it represents? i duno how u guys will think but for me.. is just like i got d key.. a key that shows i m alr mature enuf to b responsible on wat i m doin.. A key to unlock another diff stage of my life.. i duno where i m headin to... but i m sure it is goin to b full with challenges.. o mayb it is a key to lock up my sad past times so i could face d future with more courage n happiness??

i alwiz say i dunno when people ask me bout what i wan to be o about my future.. is time for me to change.. i hav to set a goal for myself.. i cant keep tellin every1 that i dunno... instead i reli duno lar.. hahaa... hopefully i dun lead myself to d wrong path... for some other, i might b imperfect, but who cares?? they might backstab me, they might accuse me, but i noe who i m. as long as i feel it is right, den i will jz follow what my heart asks me to do.. i duwan to b pity candle anymore... i will only care who i wan to care..

* * * *

yr 2009= yr thaT i becum adult

let's see what is memorable okie?

[only gud things i will mention]

1st time wear heel to uni on my BDAY

[ lame rig? but i almost fall down =___= ]

1st time went to GENTING with d gang

[ i doubt is there a 2nd chance ]

1st time fly kite..

[ i jz hold d string? LOL ]

1st time meet LINDA N LAMFUNG in real life...

1st time went to CLUB [april]

1st time visit to INTi

1st time travel to uni wit ktm

[n now it bcum normal.. sigh]

1st time sneaked out from house at midnite time..

[ when my parents were zZZ-ing ]

1st time watched 2 movies in a row..

[as in wit fren, i alwiz do so wit fam]

1st time COUNtdown for INdependence DAy @ s.p

[altho no fireworks]

1st time went to BERJAYA HILLS @ pahang

1st time went to fren's house @ mid9 to see d dog

1st time went INTERVIEW in fully formal attire

[on my bday summo]

1st time went to mamak till 4am in d morning..

[ n din get caught by mum.. PROUD]

1st time being called CLUBBER!!

[wu wu wu.. i went 4 times ny la]

1st time in DYING HAIR...

1st time in TRYIN CURLY HAIR which only last for 2 o 3 days??

n d most exciting 1..

1st time i saw miracle.. it appeared...

1st time score A+ in my subject.. LOL

there is still lots of 1st time.. but i lazy to type out d.. LOL....

hmmmm...altho there were alot 1st time but looking back year 2009, it is nt really a happie year for me.. ugly truth is wat i saw d most in this year.. i realised what is a realistic world.. life dun work as a scale.. it is not that u put in how much effort den u will gain bek d same amount of rewards.. BTW, tis is only applicable on human relationship!! we still hav to pay hardworks for study a.. that 1 is totally diff case k? as a crying baby, i duno cry for how many times in tis year.. tonnes of sad memories.. n sad cases.. but oh well.. another 2 more months den year 2009 will end.. ARLOW year 2010.. u better b a nice 1.. LOL...

thx to my frens that celeb my bday wit me...

err... m i nagging?? LOL... such a long post... kakaa.. thz for readin anyway..

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

and

Live with no excuses and love with no regrets !!

wait!!! last but not least...

i still tat ss altho i m 21... hahahaa

snapshot

2009-10-23T17:30:00.001+08:00

a snapshot from flora.. thx alot..
i jz reli heartz tis pic.. LOL
perhaps bcoz i look professional??

thank you..

2009-10-23T02:39:00.004+08:00

Hmm… finally I update my blog d. well.. 1st of all I would like to show my highest appreciation to my friends whom wrote about me for the birthday thing. THANK YOU!!

Thank to ivan yap which helped me to initiate tis task.. Although somehow, some when and somewhat he jz loves to bombard me… next time I will remember to say GUD Morning when I morning call u okie??

Big applause to ivan ong pls… lol… ya.. clap for him as he is d only one tat dare to post d retarded pic of mine to tis blog… n ya, GUD THING COMES TWICE rite? I hope u guys hav fun on readin his post… is a gud 1.. lol… dude, when ya free to come out again a?? Maybe we all can hav another ss session and by ta time u can edit nicely for us lo.. But no more retarded pose tis time k?? my market value drop d ler… =____=’ [I got ur retarded pic wit me also la.. wanna see a?]

Shawn n suzy… my 1st yr coursemates.. but they r doin biotech… hmmm… both of them are nice.. Clever n helpful.. nice to noe u guys.

Vin.. ya.. 5 yrs of friendship.. in my lil brain… d image of vin is.. He n his cap.. lol.. he jz loves to wear caps mayb? I got to noe more frens through him especially their ak group. I hope tat we gt ta chance to meet up.. bcoz I reli din get to see u for vy vy vy vy long d…. lol…

Alexander.. aka uncool guy, wakakaka… alrite la.. coolest guy in d world… among all these frens tat wrote me a post… He is not the one that knows me for d longest period, but this just doesn’t mean tat he dunno me at all… a smart guy? Yup. He taught me quite a lot things but I wonder can I ever learn it n apply it? N oh ya, I knew my smile is nice.. so u dun envy me as in u cant smile as nice as me okie?? LOL…

Ram.. a simple yet meaningful post from her.. I knew her since form six. She is reli a nice nice fren.. Thumbs up for her.. She always plan n think for us, she wouldn’t leave us when we need her help.. If there is any weakness on her, I bet that there is only one – she just dun wear dress n skirt!! N for sure make up… but who cares? Silly, I knew u r alwiz there.. not that u cant help me when I was down, is I kept myself at d corner.. No one can approach me at ta time. So dun blame urself la…

Who else ler.. lemme think think… *dang dang dang* of cos MY dearest SUSAN ~~BABI~~ BAbE… fist impression on her? Walao eh… y on d world she look so serious?? Dun she noe her serious face will sked me off.. a sweet yet innocent gal?? kakakakaaa… read d sentence? *repeat* SHE LOOK SO SERIOUS? Ya… LOOK only.. Actually she is not AT ALL.. ivan ong’s existence can make san babe to show her sampat n siaopo-ness to the fullest!! LOL… although she is in UM now.. FREAK!! UM LERRRR.. kinda near my place la.. but still I din get to see her after d last gathering… dear sannnn.. when la u free to visit this kelian yet ke ai de elene?? She goin to miss u till crazy d ler…. PLAN PLAN PLAN!!! Ask ivan n Darryl together okie?? Huggies

Lastly. Ivan kok… he is d 1 tat know me for the shortest period.. just got to noe him 2 months ago?? Ya.. I knew who is ivan kok even before I met him… wat to do?? Either is my antenna too high d o he jz being too famous.. u CHOOSE 1 lo.. I dun like to teach ppl la.. so I m totally not suitable to become teacher.. but LOL.. I can teach u how to snap ur picture on ur own.. which is SS.. I m willingly in doin tat… wanna b my student a?? F.O.C. lo.. him a… I dun dare to say I noe him well… but at least sometimes I can guess what he is going to say?? *clappin for myself* if u ask me, what word o anything will make me recall of him, d answer is HOT MOMMA… wakakakakakaa… n also LYCHeE… [Lychee is a dog, okie??] Maybe elene is hilarious at times, but she just hopes to make everyone beside her stay happily…

As wat u all can read in those posts, seem like there is a word that surely will pop out… EMO.. rite… call me EMO QUEEN.. er… duwan la.. I wan EMO PRINCESS.. queen normally very old n evil 1.. see my face also noe I m not rite?? So.. world…. I m well known on my EMO… my mood swing.. as fast as rocket? But no worries.. ELENE DUN BITE.. d worst she will show u a bitter face…

Thanks x 9.. to all of u.. thanks a lot..

Elene's DaY

2009-10-09T00:07:00.002+08:00

ya...

today is Elene's day..

bcoz it is my birthday...

woohooo.. i m officially 21!!!

casino here i come~~~

hmmm... will make tis post a short 1

will update again...

nid to slp early...

got interview later...

ELENE TANG EE LENG

-sedeniomrash denia -

once again

world, i m 21!!

o9.1o.o9 =/= o9.o9.o9

2009-10-09T00:03:00.001+08:00

On this special date, o9.1o.o9 our Ms. Elene is gonna turn 21 and it’s one shot away from turning into a devil (o9.o9.o9). Anyway, we’ll find out soon. What does that says ?? Some think it’s the legal age for clubs, parties, some say you can vote and even for some, it’s time to get married. What matters most is that you’re already a grown up, it’s time be independent, time to fly on your own, time to know what you want and where to be in the next 5 or perhaps 10 years.

Seriously, when I first heard about you, it sure wasn’t a good thing. Haha ! But after all the time spent knowing each another, some things just don’t fit my first impression of you. Well, can’t say I know you too well, but it’s enough to know you. Elene is simply a girl who express whatever she feels whenever wherever.Yes, she’s simple but simple is not something negative, just different. Your honesty and simplicity makes people come around you. And you’re bad at hiding emotions and often put others before you. It’s good in a sense but bad in another. You know what? You might as well become a teacher. “Bagaikan lilin membakar diri, menyalakan yang lain.” Lol ! But don’t forget, too much of a thing is good for nothing. Learn to pamper yourself and stand up for yourself because you are the queen of your life. You live for yourself, not for others.

There are times when the world will stumble upon you and nobody will be there for you, don’t be afraid to face it alone because what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

And, here’s something especially for you.

Hope you enjoyed it. =D !

Elene is someone that will always be there for you when you needed, someone to talk to, coz I believe she’s free most of the time …. Or maybe not. Lol. Hilarious at times but also, sensitive. Right right ?? say yes please.

“If you want to say that im leng lui, I’ll also accept wan.” Okaylaa. Since it’s your birthday: Guys ! What’d you waiting for ?? St.Patrick’s day? Can’t you see the hot momma in front of you ? xD!!

Lastly, hope you’ll have a great memorable 21st birthday. Big girl edylaaa .

It’s unlikely of me to do all this. Better appreciate it. Hahaaa . Signing off ….

Ivan Kok.

.specially just for you.

2009-10-08T16:35:00.001+08:00

WOOHOO! Susan in the house, PEOPLE! I was thinking of how am i going to be the one that who is standout the most since Elene has asked quite a number of people to blog for her. Hence, I guess this is how I am going to be special? As in NOT to be standout just to be standout? OKay. I was being lame. To be honest, something is wrong with my university comp and line that there is no font thingy function.. Geesh *bummer*'

Okay. Enough of whining. Its time for us to put a little more attention to my beloved babe, Elene Tang EEEEEEEEEEEEE Leng! *Teehee* In case you guys still wondering who the hell is this Elene even though I guess you guys should have already know her better since there are more than 5 post on her from different person previously.

I've known this babe for more than a year. As what Ivan have stated, she used to work in PDI and I am working under SEED department. In contrast with Ivan, I am actually getting closer with this babe of mine after we have stopped working in Padini Concept Store. Weird HUH? Hahaha! I know! We are not even a hie-bye friend before that. Frankly speaking, I wasnt really like Elene at first as she looks fierce and stucked up to me. HAHA. But Hell NO, I was wrong! She is nice, sensitive, pretty and smartb even though she can be quite emo and fierce at time >.< But she will only be fierce to those who have messed with her. I was exception! Teehee

Specially just for you, Elene Tang the babe,
Thanks for giving me the opportunity to actually post something on your blog. I was totally honored by it. But I am sincerely apologize for the delay as its been a totally hectic week for me

Happy 21st birthday in advanced. Tomorrow is the day that you can embrace all the benefits of being a 21 years old ~~bitch~~ woman! Whee! We can go casino without afraid of being underage. We can go to club that only restricted to those who and 21 and above. Okay. I can see a lot of dudes and babes cursing me for being bad influence. Hahaha. I was just trying to contrast with what Ivan said cause it seriously does not sound like him.

Babe, thanks for being there for me all this while. Hope it will be a better year for you this year and the last thing I want is to see you emo. SO PLEASE STOP EMO! That was so last year okay? We shall look forward and just live life to the fullest. Feel free to ring me up, You know I will be there except for certain circumstances such as assignments. >.<

*psst : so sorry cause my mind is seriously blank now. totally insomniac yesterday and did not get any enough rest due to assignment*

Hope you dont mind it ya ! :)

Last but not least, Happy 21st birthday again babe *in advanced*
Love you, forever and always!
xoxo, Susan !

- Live Like We’re Dying. -

2009-10-07T01:05:00.003+08:00

Hey ho, why in the world are we talking bout dying when it’s bout an anniversary of a happy day ? Oh well , it’s pretty simply because living is to die , and to die is to live . Okay , I made a joke I hope it’s good. It’s metaphorically written and it’s not something literal so dun go mati just to hidup ok !

Back to the real reason of me writing on somebody elses blog, besides being a favour it is also as a form of gratitude for being by me, taking care of me profesionally and for being able to be more than a friend to me. Everyone is speaking of how they know you , what they know about you and how you have been able to affect their life in a very good way in one or another. It shows how you have been and I hope that you would be able to bring more unto each and everyone of each and everyone that lives =) !

Therefore , I wouldn’t be writing bout Elene Tang but to Elene Tang. It might just be a mediocre writing but it’s for your birthday so don’t complain this time ok! Haha :P

“ Hoist Your Sails and Catch the Wind “ !

It is meant to move on and on without the need of giving up but to continue striving for the wishes and dreams you ever wanted. Certain things are fantasized and would never be true, but the thought and gesture we have for it should be good enough to satisfy you. Being 21 years old just means that you are getting older though the freedom has been captured in your palms tightly but it also meant of being more responsible for the life ahead. Knowing that friends are always around gives you the inside understanding that you shouldn’t be afraid of being alone. So I hope that you would be strengthen emotionally and physically as you know that you could be susceptible to it at times.

Your status and pm on facebook or msn at times are always intriguing as people might think that you might be going through a rough patch though sometimes it’s just a quotation from the net or maybe your real feelings too , pretty tricky huh? But it shows that you are an interesting person and that it’d draw us to knowing you more. Besides being interesting, you are also friendly, caring, loving, joyful and you have one of a sweet smile ( * note that I never smiled as well as you do ) . So smile more often, but not to fake it because a smile should be a silhouette of a heart shape that is always bright and shiny ! So, till the next time I see you I hope you’ll be much more joyful and happy for there is only a life to live therefore live it to the fullest. Put problems aside but not to ignore it just don’t let it affect you too much so u’ll still have the right judgement to settle it in the best way.

I would want to wish you a very Happy 21st Birthday that you would enjoy it to the fullest with friends and families. May the sense of freedom reinstate the blurry visions and happiness to remove the barricades of life so that you could climb higher and higher to reach the unreachable. The title of this entry is a title to a song of Kris Allen. You should so listen to it. It says that there are only 86,400 seconds in a day so why not we tell people that we love them while the chances are there.

We never know what is going to happen tomorrow , so just so you know I appreciate you much and for this and that I love you! See you when we have the chance. Until then , be well Elene =)

Much love , Alexander Lee.

simple but sincere

2009-10-06T22:14:00.001+08:00

About her….

I was blank when the owner of the blog, Elene, asked me to write in her blog a few days ago. In fact, I am not good in writing and had no idea in this. We know each other three years ago when we were studying Form Six. I am not good in making new friends as I do not talk to someone that I do not know. She is the one who take the initiate step and talk to me. She is talkative as compared to my other girl-friends except another girl – v-Li. Hence, you will not feel bored when she is around. As in my memory, she liked to “hang around” as well in the school when there was no class during Form Six. And this is what I can remember until now. Haha…

I know that I am not good enough to be her friend. I cannot feel her sadness when she is sad even though we are staying at the same house. Elene, I am sorry for that particular period.

This coming Friday is your big day. I would like to take this opportunity to wish you HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY. Be happy always, my dear!!
Ram

:+: 5 years of frenship :+:

2009-10-05T01:08:00.001+08:00

I dont have the most ideal title,I dont have the most fantastic speech to show you.But im here with a sincere heart upon a favor that i believe is worth fulfilling for.

I am here to blog about the owner of this blog ELENE Tang Ee Leng.She'll turn 21 this coming 9th October,I've known her since I was Form 3 in secondary if not mistaken.A whopping 5 years of friendship,though its not as much compared to her friends since elementary school,but its a friendship worth cherishing.

Lets begin with how we first met.Hmmm..Our initial introductions were via text messaging.That moment I remembered explicitly,I was infront of a tuition center i went towhen an unknown number called,thats when i heard her voice for the first time.

Then we started to text each other as friends and our relation grew stronger.She was very friendly and we were great friends,we would listen to each others problem and lend an ear or supply solutions.

Anyway she's a great girl to be with (if u're accustomed to her emotions) haha. The way I see it(whether its true or not) she's the type of girl u need to focus all your attention to(if not there will be consequences) and the consequences are not ur average anger(trust me,i know better)

However,I dont know if my post is adequate to fully describe this unique individual here.But its all from the bottom of my heart and before I end this blog post,I would like to wish her HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY (in advance)

May all her dreams come true

LIFE is about living with the people around you,and I am glad u are one of them.

With love,
Vincent

K.I.S.S - Keep It Short & Simple

2009-10-04T00:57:00.003+08:00

Elene? This name is so popular who doesn’t know it?? Elene as we know today is so-called a normal girl in a normal world. Too right mate! Well to be very honest, have you ever wonder you might have something in you that make you an extra-ordinary girl?

I am not familiar with blogging so I going make this short. In the beginning it was all coincidence to meet her. The very first Elene I met was a joyous on-going teen where she usually smiles and laugh out loud at the back of the class. Most of time she can be funny until you have to choice but to laugh along with her. XD. When she at her joyous mood, she can change her conversation topic very quickly which some people describe it as randomness. One must becareful too to avoid making Elene angry. Well for one good reason, who wants to lose a good friend. The second reason is, SHE BITES! Neh kidding. Well that is all I can think of now. Hopefully it is enough.

Always stay happy my friend. Oh yea nearly forgot, wishing you a 21st birthday in advance. No present for you ya!! Haha. Take care!

Luva

post from another oct baby!!

2009-10-03T09:38:00.000+08:00

I’m not really good at writing this but I’ll give it a try. It was October 9 2008, I was still blur on knowing many of my soon to be friends in class. As I was sitting in class, I remember a few days back (I have forgotten when), me, Jackie, Sky, Shawn and Brian went out with you, Jocelyn and Rachel and Serena to a nearby restaurant. Oh no…I totally 4gotten what the restaurant name is…. That was the 1st time I really get to met u. I saw u as a very cheerful and outgoing person, like loving to have a company of a group of friends. I, myself was inexperience in socializing, so I never really got the chance to speak to you. Back in class, on that day, it was a Biology class, Brian came up and announced to the class that it was your birthday and we should all sing you a happy birthday. I ,along side everyone sang, I’m not sure if Ms Lai sang, but after we sang, I remember Ms Lai asking you in a jokingly manner, “So…. how OLD are you already”. You did not really answer so I answered, without Ms Lai hearing it, “younger than you lo…” and my area burst into laughter. It was the second semester; I went for my 1st karaoke with you, Sky, Rachel and nick. It was there that I witness how you enjoyed singing so must that it makes me wanna learn to sing happily. It was my first karaoke outing, so thanks for bring me along.

Your presence in facebook also when unnoticed as your post and status would normally appear everyday. Your status often shows that you are depressed, as like things around you seem to be betraying you, and people do not understand you. It made me wonder sometimes how someone I see smiling often can be in such a depressing mood. I tried to help out but perhaps, due to my inexperience in knowing how you feel, I could not do much. But I really enjoyed looking at your photos that you have posted, sometimes after logging in to facebook. I would check your profile for any new photos of you and comment it.

Year 2 of my course, the biotechs and the food sciences are now completely separated. I know I will have very little time to having fun with you and the other food science friends. For that reason, I always try to make the best of my outing things with you and also find the opportunity to spend time with you and your friends. Because I also knew, I only have two semesters left in UCSI, and will be leaving for the UK around next year September. Thus, my time with you and along with other friends in UCSI will not be long.

Finally, as I’m leaving Malaysia next year September, this could my last time celebrating your birthday with you and your friends. I hope I can make the best out of celebrating your 21st birthday. So now, I will be wishing you a happy 21st birthday and hope that you will enjoy life to the fullest.

Soo Sze Wei (the younger libra),

Is this like a mission or what? ^^

2009-10-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

Hello blog readers,

I am kinda blur though until now because i never win any lucky draw or lottery before although i always buy -_- (shit i shouldn't tell but... )

Well well what i'm trying to mean was, i was randomly selected by ~~Miss~~ Aunty Elene to dedicate a very special something to her as a part of her twenty first bday =D
Like HELLO SHE'S GONNA TURN TWENTY TOOOT TOOOT ONE OKAY! (sorry elene i have to toot toot the word because this is not my blog. Must give good impression ^^)

So guys, like i said, Twenty Toot Toot One seemed to be something big right? Yeah, number also bigger than people lor. haha

Shit sorry i think i ran out of topic. Elene told me, ya the owner of this blog, she wanted me to compose her a ~~love message~~ story about her. haha.
WHERE ON EARTH GOT PEOPLE LIKE HER SO NARCICIST WAN RIGHT??

But never mind la -_- Since it's her big day =D

Okay so let's see how i met this gal. Oh by the way, i forgot the best part, that is introducing myself! Haha. Hello everyone, wo de ming zhi jiao Ivan. Yeah yeah i knoe the previous blog entry also same name but i think maybe the owner of this blog have some issue with the name ivan haha.

Full name, Ivan Ong Jian Hau, 19 this year, single and AVAILABLE!!!(sorry elene you need to give me some attention now =P)

teeheehee okay okay back topic =)

Anyway, this girl, hrmmm. As i can remember, i first met her in Padini Concept Store. She was dealing with PDI and i was in SEED department. So at first glance i told myself, 'damn ini padini got no leng lui'.

But you know what? I missed out the best part, that is, ELENE! haha Then i started having lunch break with her and becoming some sort like a buddy. And like any other type of buddy friend relation, we have a lot of gossip and story to crap about. YEAH talking about turning 21 and still gossiping. lol. SO INAPPROPRIATE!

The real thing that struck my mind everytime i talk to her was, DAMN she is TOOT smart! Will she even realise that i made language error like 'yesterday i go the pasar' instead of 'yesterday i went to the market'.

DO YOU EVEN REALISE THE PRESSURE TO TALK TO A GIRL WHO SCORED FREAKING NINE DAMN A's IN HER SPM??? O_O

I cannot deny that she really am a smart girl dedicated with her girl next door attitude plus a little humble and friendly look. (elene remember my free lunch okay for this sentence.^^) She can be so friendly sometimes that i told my friend once, SHIT you know that PDI Elene?? I think she like me leh!She keep looking at me, keep asking me questions, keep distracting my attention.(okay okay this part fake wan ok. Just to exaggerate it.lol)

BUT today, you guys were totally lucky! haha Because you all gonna see some exclusive pictures only available here =D Excited?

Yes congratulations people! What you see here is really exclusive. It's rare to see this camwhore queen do things like that! haha

And people always say, good things come in two!
So here it goes again

Want more? haha. Next time okay =D

Anyway, i think i have done more damage than good now =P So it's time to hand this over to her!

Before i end this, I would really wish her a

SUPER DUPER COOL TWENTY FIRST(this time without the toot toot) BURFDAY!!!

Hoping all the best that would come knocking at her every morning, may your life be blessed and may our friendship last alright??

This is the only solo pic i had with u O_O See la how much i fu chu to post my ugly picture here just for you. lol.

Twenty one doesnt mean clubbing all night and casino all day ok :D

Signing off,
Happy 21st burfday=)

p/s:sorry if i made a mess here. haha. enjoy ur day girl!

Initiate 1st step =D

2009-10-01T19:57:00.000+08:00

Alright, I shall be the first that initiate the plan of yours as to grant your wishes on this approaching 21st birthday.

The beginning of the establishment of friendship that we had, aint normal nor special, “sister” I shall presume. A gal full of emotion that merely resemble emoticons, emotions that change anytime and anywhere and or maybe every time and everyday? I might not have experience the changes that u made that everyone are complaining about. Might because that I’m that outgoing and silly which prevent u from transforming to another evil part of urs? =D *self-praise*

Anyway, an outstanding gal and silly for times is what I understand and experience throughout this unique friendship. Unique in terms of more than friendship but less than special. DON’T MISUNDERSTAND! Haha!!At any rate, if the particulars are exact, its good for u to prevail over and turn over a new leave, if it’s merely gobbledygook, we shall ignore it.

Anyway, a piece of warm confort advise, When things go wrong as they sometimes will, when the road you're trudging seems all uphill, when the funds are low and the debts are high, and you want to smile but you have to sigh, when care is pressing you down a bit - rest if you must but don't you quit. Success is failure turned inside out. The silver tint of the clouds of doubt. And you never can tell how close you are, it may be near when it seems afar, so stick to the fight when the hardest hits - it's when things go wrong that you must not quit!
*wont be wishing u Happy Birthday here =b

Ivan Yap,

OctoBer

2009-10-01T16:17:00.000+08:00

sowieeeee... i noe it's kinda long ever since i last update... jz feel so lazy... ><

Weeeee.... it is October d!!!

ya, O-C-T-O-B-E-R.. my birthday is comin...

well... for those October babies

October Gemstone: Opal

October Birthstone Color: Multi-colored - often the predominant color is white

but i wonder y d predominant color is nt purple ler??

previously was searchin a cake pic to paste to fren's website on her bday..

n lol.. tis cake n d lil cupcakes attract me.. LOL...

but cakes are FATTENING...

OMG.. i m bein so random n crazy?

perhaps i m over excited with my upcomin birthday..

although i m havin my midterm tml n comin tues..

9 october...

i m startin to countdown... LOL....
i m goin to be 21years old tis year... hehee...

*21st gotta b a diff 1*
n i gt an idea...

can i get 9 frens

to write bout me in my blog??

1 day 1 fren

n d 9th day will b my grand day d..

will tis idea work?

i dunno.. perhapssss.

to do list?

2009-09-19T22:14:00.001+08:00

currently i m havin holz for raya.. but... i wonder is tis so called of holidays?

1. get my lab report done b4 wed... 4 lab reports on food chem.. sigh
2. edit slides for PON
3. searchin info for PON assign

few days of hols. but tonne of works.. sigh.. >.<
wish me luck.....

GaMe

2009-09-14T01:52:00.000+08:00

despite of my TOMBOY-ness o rudeness o somehow.....

a "manners" game is created by Mr. Ivan

n i'm d only participant for sure...

okie dokie...

d rule is short n simple...

the words that he din use, i cant use also

n same things go to him....

it sounds fun.. like challenging myself only.. LOL...

i dun hav much $$

so i cant lose in d game..

*jia you elene...U CAN ~~gua~~*

i duwan BIG MINUS anyway.. so mz change... LOL...

so MINUS MINUS go away ya.. blek...

p/s: strive for d *ya* posing...

altho i noe it is kinda impossible to occur..

hmph.. i dun care.. still hoping it..

hope for ta best lo.. LOL

lastly n sincerely

thx ya.. kind hearted of u.. =)

Cr@p

2009-09-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

craP....
ya.. i can dun listen to u one.. but y i mind? ish...
i feel so so so demotivated..... dun ask me y..

p/s: happy birthday to my sis... happy 13th bday k...

sry.. i m nt in ta mood... will update soon...

sad caseeee

2009-09-13T02:16:00.000+08:00

i do wear baggy jeans

i do wear t-shirts

i like my slippers n also shoes...

i dun wear heels alwiz
i dun wear dress alwiz
i dun wear skirt all d while

although girlish anot is not judge by wearing dress anot.. o watsoever la.. but I WORE DRESS k???
seee....

i m girlish ~~at times~~ ..

i'm not tomboy..

T_T

M.I.S.S

2009-09-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

the weird feelin came to me again..

i dunno why

but i'm feeling helpless

yet i dun dare to find out d answer..

i only noe tat...

i shouldn't but i did... -sigh-

questionsss

2009-09-10T19:21:00.000+08:00

what is wrong wit me?

y i still feel d emptiness in me altho i m joining a big group of frens??

the minds filled with tonnes of stupid questions...

what is the meaning of my existence?

y m i here to d world?

is that any mission tat i hav to complete?

living d way i wan can make me a useful person?

being ignorant at times can help me to stay away from troubles?

i dunno...

09.09.09

2009-09-09T15:43:00.000+08:00

09.09.09

a special date rig?

every1 is wishing happy 09.09.09 around...

but it jz like a normal day for me..

dun reli hav any special meaning...

i think,

couples will like tis date luuu

because d number 9 brings d meaning of long lasting...

whosoever also wish their relationships can remain nice n sweet alwiz...

09.09.09

since today is 9th,

so 1 more month time den will b my 21st birthday

but why i dun have d feeling of expectin?

anyway....

happy 09.09.09

to everyone...

-smile alwiz-

wonderin..

2009-09-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

if every 1 have d same belongings,
izzit jealousy will never exist?
if every 1 can have the same thinking,
izzit misunderstanding will disappear?

but if every1 have the same thing o belongings... or even experiences
den what v own is nt special ald.. nt unique anymore...

i duno wat m i sayin tho.. mind is so blur n cloudy now... >.<

人渣

2009-09-05T17:16:00.000+08:00

至那無聊兼幼稚的Mr,

"經典" 這兩個字, 又怎么會只適合小女子呢? 這個稱號遠遠更適合你吧.. 試問有誰會有你這般勇氣和沖勁, 明知人家已有了男友..仍要硬插上一腳... 發揮你那無限的追女技巧, 挫敗對手更贏得美人歸... 真的是經典... 小女子望塵莫及啊....

說到轉...你舌峰上的峰回路轉遠比在下高明... 承蒙錯愛, 直到今日我才直到原來我有讓人團團轉的本事.. 我真是后知后覺啊... 可惜的是讓人團團轉的本事在您面前簡直是小巫見大巫... 你那可愛的腦袋的旋轉才讓人佩服.. 您竟能無中生有, 原來你的世界里就只有男歡女愛, 男女之間并無友情的存在!! 在下不才,建議您他日如果不幸留級或事業上碰到瓶頸, 不妨考慮轉向演藝事業... 幕前幕后您兼勝任有余... 做個監制也不賴.反正你的腦袋里不是都會有那些電影情節... 白的你也能硬拗成黑的... 所謂的報復方法... 還要多多謝謝您的建議, 這個幼稚的妙計我看恐怕就只有你想得出來吧?? 還是這就是你慣用的計謀?? 真是感謝你的教導..不過本人從不會有如此這般的想法... 也做不出來..

真心祝福?? 敢問在下受得起嗎?? 心領了... 本人可不想折福折壽啊... 你自求多福吧...
本人最多也不過是重色輕友,但您最經典的還不就是重色輕友, 又或者應該說是過河拆橋?? 追她時, 就朋友前朋友后..有什么事就搖個電話要求幫忙...多人行亦無所謂..得手后連個招呼都沒有.. 如果只有我這么說, 那也許是我對你的偏見.. 但事實擺在眼前, 原來不只我一個人有這般想法.. 也許您需要自我反省一番, 又或者是我們冤枉了你? 你心里有數.. 一開始, 我到底會不會造就了一場錯誤呢? 希望他日她不會怪我..畢竟我也算是讓他們相遇的人..

還有.. 你所謂的看不順眼... 無所謂吧... 反正你的看法并不重要... 因為你對我微不足道..給你臉也是因為她, 不然你以為呢? 即使這是我的行事作風, 多口問一句: 干你何事啊? 不如多花些時間在課業上..比較實際... 八卦八卦.. 不想聽就把耳朵封起來,不然就封起旁人的嘴.. 就選其一吧....

在下多口一句... 你那可笑的自以為是和大男人主義,搞不好會讓你失去你現在的一切.. 珍惜吧.. 花無千日紅..誰知明日會不會又突然出現一個與你一樣不怕第三者名義的人來奪愛啊?

你讀再多的佛經也沒用...因為你的心不是清靜的... 只從字面上了解那意思..是沒用的... 自重吧...

在下不才...

no mooddddd

2009-09-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

i reli dun understand...
why lies do exist?
white lies?? i dun think so...
even a fren also tryin to create lie.. wat the...
i m alr nt so in mood.. dun make me pissed off pls..
n u jerk.. stay away.. i dun like to talk to u now..
* * * *

where r u nw??
i noe i shouldn't..
but..
i miss u..
-sigh-

blue-nesssssss

2009-09-03T11:12:00.000+08:00

i m reli feelin so lazy n blue...

like not in mood for every single thing..

dun ask me why.... i duno eitherrrrr

mayb is bcoz i din get enuf sleep ba...

B-L-U-E

i freakin miss this small thingy!!!!

LYCHEE!!!!!

how come she can make me miss her so much??

i miss hugging n holdin her..

but no more chance d.. tsk tsk...

p/s: can d owner dun leave so i can kip on seeing her?? LOL..

[i noe it is impossible... sad sad sad]

my mind is quite cloudy nw...

but oh crap...

ya..

perhaps i did miss u... lol..

*wink*

MIA is signing off!!!

random...

2009-09-01T02:59:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeee..... i m feelin lazy to update my blog ler...
but my hometown trip nt yet done also.. will blog bout it soon!! cross my heart for tat...

it is 3.00a.m now
n mangkuk aku... not yet sleep...
how come??
lol... becoz i get to see LYCHEE jz nw?? lol...
i miss her... >.<
[i knew it is lame.. i m jz reli hyperactive nw... lol]

hmm.. tml is d 1st day of my YR 2 1st sem..
n for goodness sake...
i PLAN n i WILL skip class tml...
I M STILL D PONTENG QUEEN!! *wink wink*
i m goin off to PAHANG tml..
*expecting*

new sem.. new hope... new EXPERIENCE...
bless me!!

bek in hometown...

2009-08-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

urmmm... i m here again to update my blog.. i m STILL in JOHOR.. so smarty fella.. i m not goin bek to Klang yet la.. so enjoy ya clubbin nite huh!! LOL... i wonder... m i too bad to joke on tat?? lol.. i m nt goin to club tonite.. so i wont c u in poppy... so sad kan?? hope ya enjoy.. n.. my lil dirty bet jz doesn't work at all.. once i said it... i jz joke on it ler.. chill dey~~ i m takin d time to update my ~~deadly~~ lovely blog...

hmmm.. wat i did a?? ya.. i m in johor rite nw!! doin ntg over here..m here for d sake of family n relatives!! AKU NI GREAT SANGAT!! LOL... jz bcoz i duwan stay at home alone.. so have to tag along... OKIE... i can assume d trip to johor is a KIA-GO-MAKAN trip... o weight gaining trip!!

woke up around 7++ o 8++ to start my journey to bek my lovely sweet hometown which is Muar... sleepin in d car is my favourite activity whenever it is a long journey.. LOL... so i slept till half way, my sis was askin for breakfast..so my dad stop at nilai to have dimsum as breakfast.. Nilai.. a place tat familiar yet strange4me...

tis is wat i ate... lol... my favourite??

continueD the journey bek to johor.. n continue slp-ing.. lol... gud rite? by d time i reached my uncle's hse... is 11something jor.. so i CLIMBED into d room n continue sleeping... till i woke up again to hav my lunch.. ya.. i 4get to take d pic for d noodles.. nt bad lo... jz rite after 15mins.. heard my cousin yellin my name wit d hope i can help him order pizza.. >.<' for god sake i helped him to order n also EAT... lol.. i ate again... mushroom soup... way better den d 1 i had yest~~

n ya.. tat mangkuk above is my bro.. lol... snappin his pic altho he said dun.. hmph.. *i dun care*

hang out in d room wit my dearest internet n msn n also FACEBOOK... n also d potato chips tat my lil kind cousin boy gav to me... d muffin, ice cream.. n also d bun..

i managed to stay awake till dinner time.. where we all busy preparing for tomorrow's thingy.. my uncle tapao food from outside.. as all lazy to move to outside to makan... apa la ni.. *makan pun lazy*

ya.... what they tapao? gt duck summo... ya.. jz those rice, noodles n etc.. jz i dun think i see any VEGE lol... anythin ba...

n ya.. tis is d lil boy cousin tat asked me to order pizza which end up he givs me a packet of potato chips as reward.. great huh??

n oh yea.. i managed to grab VITAGEN from d fridge... where it aids in digestion.. i hope so... i ate alots...

haiz... n oh ya, proud wit myself.. sayin NO to d prawn mee jz nw.. but wth.. i m feelin regret nw!! ARGH....

n let's see my grandpa's old car.. hmm.. nt a vy value 1.. but it did mean alot for us...

see d outer appearance.. what colout is tis?? GOLD?? lol.. i dunno.. mayb i m colour-blinded...

see d inside.. lol...

no seat belt 1 ler... n... d gear is on d left side on the steering lo...

n can see?? i sPEUGEOT ler.. wit d model 403.. lol.. dunno how old it is... can i trade a brand new peugeot wit this car?? LOL... last time, when dad busy workin n not around.. if we sick.. den grandpa wills end us to clinic wit this CUTE car... so memories still there... is a nice 1!! n ya!! tis is d car la.. d car tat alwiz throw me to clinic to get injection when i was still a baby n also kid.. >.<''

altho tis morning i m kinda emo.. but i gt frens tat chat wit me all d while.... n again i wanna claimed tat... WEBCAM is a GOOD invention.. lol... thx u guys alot....

ps: i miss LYCHEE.... >.<

I m BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-26T14:03:00.000+08:00

i m sorry for leaving my blog for such a long long time.. ok.. so nw.. is time for me to update it jor!!

well... i m currently havin my sem break, which is almost 14++ days long... approximately la..

i m not goin to count how long it is because tis break is so killin me!!

i m so bored!! life is so dull!!!!!!!!!

n oh yea.. stupid elene is nw bek to the emowannabe state again!!

ya.. is A-G-A-I-N!!! ARGH!! tat is not a gud symptom.. WTF!!!!!!!!!! y my emo nvr leave me!! y i can nvr learn to control my emo ler.. haiz....n ya.. i played the missing game for 2days... totally disappear from my fav facebook n msn... no1 ever get to see me.. any 1 miss me?? NOPe!! haiz... i jz dun feel facing any1 at tat time.. i feel i nid my own space.. i duno why... haiz... my emo will kill me sooner o later.... but.. god is kind?? LOL... ya... a fren brought me out... which set me free from my emo-ness, boredness n wat so ever those negative feeling....

n guessed wat we did?? movie marathon?? nt reli marathon la... jz.. 2 movies in a row.... wit a short break in between... LOL... Up which i s PG13 and the Laughing Gor (18PL)...

so there is totally 2 different types of movie... but it is nice overall... lol.... i m glad tat i watched UP... as... it did make me laugh... LOL...

i like Carl Fredricksen... he is so so loyal n faithful to Ellie.... d lil kid russell somehow is a vy talkative kid.. lol.. which there is a scene:

Carl Fredricksen: Do you want to play a game? It's called See Who Can Go the Longest Without Saying Anything.

Russell: Cool! My mom loves that game!
*****
some other funny parts is...

Carl Fredricksen: You'd better get up, Russell. Or else, the tigers will come and eat you.

Russell: Tigers don't live in South America. Zoology.

[err.. i duno d fact either?? till i watched this movie... lol.. zoology...]

****

Russell: A wilderness explorer is a friend to all, be it bird or fish or tiny mole!

Carl Fredricksen: That doesn't even rhyme!

Russell: [offended] Yeah, it does!

**this movie is jz simple yet giving me d feel of warmth.. i dunno why...but... it is a nice 1!!

Carl is so so sweet wit ellie... where they could stay together till they are old.. even tho when ellie left... carl nvr 4get their dream on d adventure.. mayb this is what tat make tis movie warm?? i dunno.. but i love tis movie!! bcoz i LOL all d while which make me 4get bout all those negative things that happened recently... phewwww....

get to know Carl n being together till d end of d life is also adventure of life for ellie... it is a nice 1.. ^^

ANOTHER MOVIE!!

compared to UP, the LAughing Gor 1 is more hectic n more excited?? lol... is more complicated also.. the storyline is about that Laughing is supposedly an undercover police officer who has infiltrated a triad organization. However, before he became a police officer, Laughing was a member of the triads and worked for the big boss man No. 1. No. 1 was very good to Laughing, and Laughing looked up to No. 1 as his elder brother. In order to strengthen his business and illegal activities, No. 1 arranges for Laughing to join the Police Force and become his mole to gather information about the plans and counter-plans for operations by the police.Laughing graduated from Police Academy with outstanding results but before he was assigned to a post as a police officer, his "bad boy" image attracted the attention of the Head of District Anti-Triad Squad, Superintendent Sin who arranges his assignment as an undercover cop to infiltrate the mob syndicate.Laughing is now a "double" mole.

ya... that is d synopsis... LOL.. i kind of enjoyin this show ler.. jz many characters died at last... >.<>

laughing n his gf... karen, pretty rite?? but died at last.. ><''

hmmm... overall.. i enjoyed tis outing.. thx ya dude... for settin me free from my downfall... *highest appreciation*. is a nite that i din recall bek the emo things ever which make me able to hav a lil bit of QUALITY sleep...

p/s: i did recall of him when i was watchin UP.. when Ellie said "i dun bite" to the Carl... this short sentence reminds me of u.. u jz sud came across the mind in a sud... i miss u..

i hav to move on.. n stay happily... -cross my heart for it-

come bek to meee..

2009-08-18T16:50:00.000+08:00

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me

I'll wait for you
So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time, I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and I'll let you go, I'll set your free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
And I hope you find everything that you need

I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me
I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you, I can't save you
It's something you'll have to do

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Come back to me
So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me
You find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me

can u?

2009-07-13T18:56:00.000+08:00

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful,
but the uncontrollable tears never stop flowing
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Please don't go away

randomly

2009-05-13T01:54:00.000+08:00

the nite is still young..
the weather is hot...
but y m i feelin cold?
cold-hearted.. did such word exists?

u said i go emo when things dun get exactly d same as wat i wish...
aint tis human?
i nvr say i m perfect..
jz wondering...
whether it is
u noe wat i expect but u just ignored it...
o u reli duno it?
o u dun giv a damn on tat?

i reli duno..
i cant noe wat u wan either...
duno wat u think...

m i doin d rite thing?
o did i do the thing right?

-Hope for the best, expect the worst, take what comes-
i m jz a normal human.. i still cant apply tis theory well.... nvr learn to take things easy as well....

-emowannabe is signing off-

bf o fren?

2009-03-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

每一个女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
for every gal, there will b a guy beside her, but the 1 is not boyfren..
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
but, why cant u2 b together?
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
mayb he jz too care on his frens, so he cant go after u
也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。
mayb bcoz his family member's opinion, so u 2 cant get to b together...
也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。
mayb bcoz he wanted to go oversea to further his studies, but he din ask u to wait for him...
也许你们相遇太早，
mayb u 2 jz meet too early...
还不懂得珍惜对方。
n duno how to appreciate each other..
也许你们相遇太晚，
mayb u 2 meet too late d
你们身边已经有了另一个人。
both of u are already attached to others..
也许你回头太迟，
mayb u jz realised too late
对方已不再等待
he is no longer waiting for u
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
mayb u 2 are guessing
而迟迟无法跨出界线。
but nvr try to make a move
不过即使你们没在一起，
but altho u 2 din get to b together
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
u 2 remain the status as fren..
但是你们心底清楚，
but deep in d heart, both of u are clear wit that
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
u concern n care tis fren more den normal fren
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
altho u 2 cant hold hand n go out together
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
but u 2 are frens that will talk bout everything..
他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
if he say he like sum1, u will say tat u gotta help him to get d gal..
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
but deep in ur heart u r nt clear tat do u hope tat he can get d gal..
他遇到困难时，
when he is in trouble,
你会尽你所能的帮他，
u will try to help him al d best
不会计较谁又欠了谁。
u wont care izzit he had bring trouble to u..
男女朋友吃醋了，
if ur couple feel jealous over the guy
你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，
u will jz comfort dem n tell dem u 2 are jz frens
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。
but u will feel not sure in ur heart.. izzit jz fren
每个人这辈子，
in every1's life
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
they will gt a special fren like tis..
很矛盾的行为。
it is confusing...
一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
actually at d beginning, u duwan to b fren only...
但久了，突然发现这样最好。
but u found that this is d best after sometimes...
你宁愿这样关心他，
u will rather to concern him in tis way
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
rather den u2 couple up n will get break up at 1 day later...
你宁愿做他的朋友，
u rather to b his fren
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
so u 2 wont get jealous n tat is y can talk on everythin...
特别是这样，
n especially
你还是知道，
u will still noe that
他永远会关心你的
he will care for u forever
做不成男女朋友，
cant get to b couple
当他那个特别的朋友，
but b his SPECIAL fren
有什么不好呢？
aint it gud?
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？
who is this special fren in ur heart?
很多的感情，
in many love problems,
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了
cant even b fren at last jz bcoz it is a single-sided love
常常觉得惋惜，
alwiz we will feel it is pity o wasted
可惜一些本来很好的友情
最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
somehow that is supposed b a vy gud frenship
but jz bcoz u dun hav any response when he said d phrase "i like u"
n tis frenship is hard to get continued...
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。
n this is y sum1 duwan to make d 1st move...
因为这就像是一场赌注，
bcoz it is jz like a bet
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
after confessed, it is either b couple
要不就连朋友都当不成了。
o else no more fren...
有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
sometimes there is something tat u cant expect
mayb d opponent will dun mind...
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好.
u 2 can still b fren.. but nt as close as b4 anymore....

read tis from mail... yea.. agree on this totally... dun u?

update..

2009-03-01T12:30:00.000+08:00

Wow wow.. I left my lovely blog for quite a tempo d lo.. psps.. wat to do ler? I m super duper busy for tis sem ler.. haiz.. taking all those stupid subjects make I felt frustrated… haix.. well.. read bek my previous blog.. oo.. those quiz ended d.. n I done my moral assign too.. wit 2300 words.. wakaka.. *APPLAUSE for me* I wont do tat anymore.. stupid assign… to b honest.. although I had passed up that, but till nw I still dun hav idea on wat I had written.. hehe..
Erm.. so nw is my time to update my blog wit backdated posts and activities.. I m jz too lazy to update at the vy first moment ma.. den who noe time FLIES.. nvm la.. I update nw lo.. wakaka…
Well… although I do alwiz complain on the stupid studies thing.. n reli do feel tension sometimes. But I feel happy too.. hehe.. bcoz our ss gang is getting bigger n bigger lo.. hehe.. johan n siong chin had joined us.. n hehe.. I think they are ss member too.. wakaka.. especially our big bro>>> JOHAN.. ou yea, for those who read my blog for d 1st time… SS stand for SYOK SENDIRI.. n yet.. I can intro my gang thru pics.. hehe..
We went to GREENBOX on 11 feb straight after our JAVA quiz.. although we have ard hour to do the paper.. o 1 hour n 30 mins.. I aint sure.. bcoz I used 15mins to do all those questions… hehe.. yet I dun dare pass up my paper.. bcoz I duwanna b d first 1 tat hand up ler.. I afraid other would misunderstood tat I m pro.. hehe.. once I saw there was sum1 tat hand up his paper, I straight hand my paper as well.. n.. wakaka.. my ss gang members also came out 1 by 1 after me.. great… v skipped d java lab and went to sing k.. yea.. I knew we shouldn’t do so.. but.. study hard n PLAY HARDER.. wakaka.. n seem like we all understand this theory and applied it to the fullest too.. at 1st v tot to sing for the noon session only but since the waitress told us tat as long as v pay extra rm10 den v can eat the buffet and prolong our singing hours.. end up v only left sg wang at 9.30pm.. yet we continued our happy hour wit “lepak-ing” in the pasar mlm.. wakaka.. for sure our outing will b full wit the lovely pics.. hehe..

since we are d only 3 gals there.. so each of us gt our own ss pic.. wakakaka..

my fav cakes.. hehee

hehee.. i dun und y johan has tis pose in this comin pic ler.. look like unhappy wor...

n see d old song tat they sang.... can u guys guess wat song is tat?

I think all of us born to b poser.. v can even camwhore when v r having our uni chem2 session.. hehe.. jz to free to do so.. sobz.. the stupid gang photo… I m nt included in tat ler.. YER... protest..

n the group photo....

well.. they all say that tis pic look great... *wink* sure la.. i m d photographer ler... but they claimed that the pic look because i m nt included.. sad

Come come.. let me intro our big bro in d gang.. MR JOHAN!! Hehe.. he alwiz claim tat he is only 18 yrs old.. but all of us noe d fact. Wakaka… his solo pic.. erm.. dun view if u jz done wit ur dinner o meals!!!

erm.. he hold d 4 Queens in his hand.. he dun even wan Ace....

Btw.. kinda miss my BLACK hair days.. but.. I dun think I goin dye back d colour so soon.. o else.. my mum sure gonna chop me for simply spend d money!!! jz miss that because some of my frens say I look better in black hair.. look younger.. yer.. sad la.. nvm lo.. hehe.. I put some black hair pics here too… all of dem were taken at the beginning of this yr..

Erm.. here go my solo ss pic.. hehe.. jz too long din update ma.. so I show all at once?? Wakaka…

hehe. latest ler.. jz trim my front part of hair.. hehehe..

will update again soon!!!

SS gang in LiBrarY

2009-02-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

today jz had my uni chem 2 quiz.. ish.. duno how to do... haix.. n.. tired ar.. stupid la.. got TONs of work to do... let's see ya...

1. moral assignment... wit the number of words mz in range of 2000-3000 words..

due date:next wed

[dumb la.. how to write so long ler?? i wonder.. can exceed 1000words edi counted nt bad ler..]

2. chem lab report, due date is next tuesday

3. revision for java, quiz on WED.. [n i m totally blur wit those codings...]

n tis week gto lab session for structural biochem.. sob.. bz like hell la...

erm, 4get it.. hehe.. update awhile on my blog.. hehe.. after d outing on MCD, well.. we all are gud students... so we went ot library on yesterday... hehe.. bcoz there was a short break btw 2 classes.. n dwei said v shall go to library to revise for our coming chem quiz..

well.. now i can conclude tat, the revision dun work on me..

AS I STILL DUNNO TO DO TAT QUIZ FOR TODAY!!!

hehe... we tried to b quiet in library... n we did reli study.. hehe.. n take pics too...

dedicated to study... n u can see our dedication thru these pics...

but.. too bad... those high-tech products distracted us....

see... the handphone making us cant fully concentrate.. things gone worse when d ipod touch is there... hehe.. listening to songs summo...

oh yea... if either of u are having problems on imsonia... i think... d best way to make u all fall asleep is studyin... dun blif?? jz take a look here...

serena n me... taking rest in library... wakakaka....

n... see.. in this coming pic... sum1 is tryin to show her fingers...

cant see clearly rite?? nvm.. i gt the clearer pic...

ya... nail art... hehee....

nowadays... the handphone come wit the camera function... so v should hav use on it.. since all of us are EXHAUSTED after did d revision.. so camwhore session... hehe

wakakaa... ya.. posing is my hobby.. hehe...

seem like v can take pic at everywhere... wakaka... havin gud time in the library.. hehe...

p/s: bless me tat i can hand up my things on date.. ^^

i'm back~~

2009-02-05T16:33:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!! i m bek..

hehe.. ya.. i knew i left my blog for quite awhile.. hehe.. so here i m to make it alive again.. hmmn.. that is too many things tat i wanted to write but i duno start from where..

hehe.. i think.. let start wit the "reunion lunch" for today lo.. hehe... ya... our SS gang's reunion.. after d chinese new year's break, our dearest member, joselynn went to genting n din see her for 3 days.. hehe... n once she bek to us, our SS's president, sky said tat we goin to hav reunion den.. so here goes... hehe...

after ended our Uni chem class, we headed to MCD for our lunch.. we were in a rush as we only had 1 hour break n we hav the structural biochem class after tat.. erm.. it is nice.. bcoz i duno the MCd is doin promotion or wat.. gt the mcvalue lunch.. the mcchicken set is only rm5.95.... it is way more cheaper den d normal price... hehe... MCD is in CROWD when we reached there... SWT!!! dun they noe eatin too much fastfood is not gud for health.. erm.. we din go so often la.. hehe.. we are CIVILISED so v do queue up. although we were in rush, but SS club wor.. sure la SS inside mcd again... hehe... so.. kindly take a look on these pics.. yea.. ELENE is d photographer, so forgive me if my skill is nt gud.. as i dun reli hold camera for other.. most of d time i m camwhoring.. hehe..

d 1st tat i goin to intro is...

deng deng deng deng....

Mr. SKY...

our dearest SS club's chairman...

erm.. ok ok.. he is bz wit his burger when i snap tis pic.. hehe..

nicky... hehe... enjoyin his meal...

sky vs joselynn

joselynn vs dwei

double s --->>serena & szewei..

rachel..

elene n rachel

last but nt least... d group photo...

erm... d before and after??

at 1st v tot v couldn't finish d fries.. but fact proved tat we think too much d..

will update my blog again wit some bekdated posts.. hehe.. bz ler.. havin quiz on comin week... ^^

lady-like?

2009-01-12T09:26:00.000+08:00

i m not lady like?

ya.. i m not.. i duno from when n why... i jz knew.. i reli having more guy frens den gal frens.. n for sure i get to hang out wit guy frens more except spend time wit my gang... yea, i m not lady like.. n i think.. my guy frens alwiz say i m sporting... sporting? n now end up sum1 sayin i m not lady like.. i dunno.. i dunno y tat word stuck in my mind.. isn't tat i should say who cares?? y i mind tat sentence tat much?

resolution of this yr is to b more lady like??? m i goin to change? but if i change d den i m not d gal tat u noe at beginning d....i duno... jz.. i knew.... i m reli nt in mood.....

is it bcoz i m nt lady like, den only he take me as dude?

the Cave

2008-12-30T17:32:00.000+08:00

bekdated post again n again...

who taught me tat??

IT IS NOT susan YA...

she nvr post bekdated post 1.. not influnced by her 1..

she is "INNOCENT" 1 lo..

well.. back to my topic.. hehe.. well.. tis post actually is jz to show san wat i ate lar.. hehe.. but.. vy less pic ler.. as the environment is too dark.. so cant reli see clearly also ler.. so.. sry lo.. got chance den v go there la san... only if U PAY!!

19/12- went to THE CAVE COUPLE AND RESTAURANT with my colleagues... okie.. i told dem.. we go THE CAVE ok?? den they say ya n so la v went to there.. as usual i din drive lo.. but i felt weird when i passed the 1 UTAMA.. n soon i saw the word THE CURVE... OMG!!! swt... i shouted in d car.. n they asked me y..

how come v will come to the curve arrr??

nt tat u say wan to come here de meh??

=.=!!! arlow.. abang.. i say THE CAVE ler.. bukan CURVE aaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......

turn bek turn bek turn bek...

n so v headed to PJ SS2 from the curve.. swt.. n when we reached the CAVE, it was already 9.30pm..late for my dinner d le... well.. once v got seated.. hehe.. sure la v ordered.. hehe.. actually there is set dinner. but i dun prefer tat.. so.. hehe.. i ordered separately.. yea.. i ate chicken chop.. erm.. jz like d name.. the cave.. the place is like a cave lo.. hehe.. where even d wall is also in rock.. hehe...

'SEVEN SPICES UP CHICKEN CHOP'

[hopefully i din remember d name yea..]

mayb i dun like pepper o wat gua... for me d chop is considered as nt bad only lo.. hehe..

but... the GREATEST 1 is their dessert ler.. hehe...

[WARM CHOCOLATE PUDDING WITH VANILLA ICE CREAM]
hehe..tis lil devil thing.. cost RM 16.80 lo..

n this little cup of thing is dessert for dinner set.. for sure is mine better la.. hehe...
n also d bill...

overall.. i will wish to go again to test for different dessert la.. hehe.. see when lo..

see... d light effect reli not suit for me to take pic inside lo.. so no more pic ler.. hehe.. mayb my skill aint tat gud... hehe..

-p/s- san, if u wan to treat me tis, mayb i will consider of accompanyin u to go there lo.. lol..

random again..

2008-12-29T11:43:00.000+08:00

2 more days

den i will stop working..

which mean

31st dec is my last day..

expecting to bek to uni to start study life again..

tat is way much better den workin life..

well.. jz update myself in san's blog..

A-D-M-I-T??

wat i hav to admit wo..

y i duno de?

hehe.. san, if i admit to u.. den..

will it become true??

n.. pray hard so san will get 3.5 n above

for coming sem n i will

see her running naked in UM!!

m expecting on outing on eve.. any1 got nice plan den update me pls.. ^^

random

2008-12-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

erm.. ya.. xmas jz passed.. well.. seem like every1 got their own plans on eve.. pity me.. my gang left me out.. 1 went BUKIT BINTANG.. 1 went ARA DAMANSARA + SP + PJ SS2 + BERKELEY... sad la.. i duwan b bulb so din join any of dem ma... as in they went out 1 on 1 den wat for i join?? sad la...

wat i did on eve a?? okok... went out wit soon aik n his frens... jia jian, alex, sin tat for steamboat.. as celebration for soon aik's bday.. ya.. his bday is jz exactly on d eve.. well.. as usual.. i din drive.. so jia jian picked me up n we went for steamboat in BT.. erm... ok bah.. but seem like went for steamboat become a trend among my life cycle ler.. alwiz heard my frens say go stemboat.. terry n his gf joined us up on the half way... ate n talked.. hehe.. headed to AEON after tat.. they tot of watchin movie but.. no NICE shows so end up go yumcha... i dun rmb d place's name.. is opposite the biz cafe... hehe... lots of ppl.. n u can imagine their workin speed.. v ordered n the choc ice blended only reached on the table after ONE n HALF hour.. hehe.. imagine la.. n they drank beer.. okie dokie.. i din join dem on tat.. as.. i goin to hav blood screening on the next day.. so i started to PUASA after 11pm lo.. ehehe.. their faces looked so red after drank d beer.. i wonder are dey ok.. hehe.. bek to my hse ard 1sumting... and hit my bed at 2am.. while my FRENS not yet reached home.. see... they enjoyed their time~~

well.. woke up at 8am on xmas!!! OMG.. i nid more sleeping time la... but my mum dragged me out for blood screening... !!!!!!!!! other celeb their xmas but i hav to endure PAIN!! swt case!! the syringe is too big ler.. although the volume is just 10CC.... but.. i still felt it is too big in size where make i feel geli to c tat... well.. i SWEAR... i duwan go for blood test anymore... duwan la... when it was my mum's turn, i m still able to talk wit the doctor on my mum's health problem.. but things do change... when it is my turn, hehe... is just like askin a kid to take injection.. is not tat i m kid k?? just feel afraid when saw teh doc took d syringe.. swt la.. but.. i din shout k?? i jz looked to another side n tried to ignore wat the doctor said... swt la him.. he still keep talkin to his assistant.. "she is still young, so her blood vessels are soft.. nid to b careful..bla bla bla.." den duno wat he said, but i heard the word collapse.. well.. end up i m freakin afraid there... ISH!! yet the blood pressure is too low.. i think.. he took longer time to take the blood from me.... freaking long ler... pain pain pain... n.. well.. i got the attraction from every1!! as... i edi feel dizzy on d half way n when all things done.. hehe.. i jz cant manage to stand well.. IT IS NOT FAINTED k? jz i feel no energy n dizzy.. sia sue betul!!! but... after i rest for half an hour.. hehe.. i managed to go for shopping n also to trim my hair.. hehe..

erm.. altho my mum and d doc say i m jz phobia on the syringe o the blood so only react liddat.. but i dun think so.. i m NOT tat weak k?? just... I SLEPT too LATE on the previous nite... so only will end up liddat.. no point say tat i hav phobia on tat thingy.. altho i feel geli la... swt.. sia sue betul la.. n i claimed again...

i do not hav phobia on blood or syringe k???

oh yea... trim my hair and also straighten it.. so now is jz wondering on shall i dye o highlight o jz liddat will b ok... wondering...

sure la i will post some ss pics... after d new hair cut.. hehe...

still ok rite??

better say yes..

o else... i will kill u guys...

JoGoYa

2008-12-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

Monday nite.. was d nite tat i went to watch Bolt wit my ex-classmate.. hehe.. primary sch fren wo.. hehe.. not bad tho.. quite a nice movie.. hehe.. i jz so so so in love wit d BOLT.. hehe.. d hamster not bad too.. hehe... overall.. tat movie is nice lo.. hehe.. i m not gud in rating but i jz like tat show.. hehe...

continued my J-fever... hehee.. went to Jogoya on tuesday.. hehe..
elene. rachel. jeffrey. laipeng. vonli

thx to jeffrey as he willingly fetched us to there..it is quite annoying to bring 3 EXTRA bulbs along.. hehe... went all d way from klang to jogoya.. hehe... in between.. we did stop in sumwhere to ask bout d actual location of jogoya..hehe.. i admit.. i duno recognise d road.. n duno see d map.. hehe... i dare to admit lo..n it is not only LIBRAN dunno recognise road k?? hehe.. enjoyin there... hehe... some of the pics..

the food...

osyter wor... but i din eat.. as it is fishy for me.. wakakaka.. kinda wasted lo.. but who cares~ i think i enjoy d sushi more.. hehe...

n also the sliced abalone.. hehe... nice.. tat 1 extremely nice.. n it attracts me more.. hehe..

for sure.. got alot alot dishes too.. hehe..

n also.. dessert.. hehe... marshmallow and ice cream.. HAAGEN DAZS wei.. wow!!!! see the fridge tat full with the pudding and cakes.. i love tat.. hehe.. variety of flavours of pudding and cakes.. nice wei!!

the leftover.. hehe... part of it la...

erm.. except d food.. sure la v will camwhore abit in d restaurant too lo...

ehem... for sure not only tat pic la.. so v start it wit vonli's pic.. hehe.. she enjoyed took pics wit the coconuts.. xD

i can only say tat... the conclusion is... SHE IS obsessed wit the COCONUTS!! erm.. d amount of coconuts tat showned in the pic is jz a small part of the total amounts of d coconuts tat v drank.. hehe... n despite of seeing her camwhore wit coconuts.. i joined her too..

n there is still other camwhoring pics.. here go!!!

even camwhoring inside d toilet.. but only me n rachel... hehehe...

inside starhill...

the word.."precious" haha... purposely snap it.. hehe...

blur mode... d cameraman's fault...

so another shoot!!

camwhore wit bamboo?? i duno wat is tat... wood o bamboo o??

ooo.. there is hidden mirror among the bamboo.. cham.. ss again...

PAvilion

inside pavilion...

outside pavilion.. on d road....

can u guys see me n von li in d pic?? no rite?? i knew.. d deer is more attracting~~

hehe......... last but not least... my own ss pic~~

hehe... enjoyin my life to the fullest...

p/s: i knew.. i look fat in d pic d la.. okok.. will hav my diet soon.. but is my frens too slim la.. making tat i look fat... sad...

J

2008-12-14T19:57:00.000+08:00

kakaa.. suddenly got mood to blog now...

jz a blog to show san n every1 i'm J-fever....

well.. for those who noe me...
they will noe tat...
Jay is alwiz my idol...
[so nvr nvr tell me u dun like him in front me...]
n i m crazy over him...
JaY
jay rox!!!

okie okie.. i m alwiz dream on tat i will get d jackpot on 1 day n i gotta be rich n rich n rich!! day dreamer rite?? i knew.. but life without dreams are bored... i dun think jade suits me but i still like to get alot jewelleries... indulgence?? mayb... hehe...

yaya.. expecting on CNY... uncle's gf had invited us to go her new hse in batu pahat.. i dun reli close with her.. but she said in the bathroom got jacuzzi wo... hahaha.. anythin will do.. instead of goin to her hse on CNY, i wish tat i can go to hav a jaunt... mayb go to Japan?? i shall stop dreaming... class is goin to start in January yet i still alwiz dreaming.. wat to do ar??
goin move back to cheras soon once d new sem start... shall start to pack my bag d... hehe.. i will rmb to bring my jacket tat i jz bought n also d jeans... hehe.. o else i will freeze in d class.. shall buy some junk food too... hehe...
recently too bored in the hse.. except following the track n listen to new songs.. i think my bro played alot jazz too.. but i still prefer RnB... u guys judge la.. jazz o RnB better??

-Jingle bell-
xmas is jz ard the corner... knew tat my younger cousin will go to singapore to celeb her xmas.. i feel goin out too but i dun like to stuck in d jam.. as tat is annoying!! jealousnya.. y she can go to singapore...while i hav to work >.< style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">jinx next to me.. bad luck wei..

p/s: any1 interested on joining me to get my jigsaw puzzle done??

san... i m J-fever now... n dunno how long it can last.. dun u?? since u said u r Jay's fans too ma... blek...

tag

2008-12-13T10:38:00.000+08:00

tagged again.. tagged by d susan babe.. okok.. den i will do this.. hahaa... since my blog is so dead.. wakakaa... so...

Go!!!

A. Attached or Single?
for this 1.. i will take san's answer.. yeah..

† Single but attached

B. Best Friend?

† i dunno do i hav any of dem as best fren, but i treasure every fren tat i hav

C. Cake or pie?

† erm.. can i hav both??

ok.. i will take cake..only if i'm being forced to choose either 1.

D. Day of choice?

† i dunno wat will happen for every single day, so everyday i will expect..

E. Essential item?

† well, i m realistic.. $$ is essential of course.
altho v said money is not everything, but everything is about $$$$

so.. MONEY!!!!

F. Favorite colour?

† no doubt.. purple rox!!

G. Gummy bears or worms?

† weird question.. but gummy bears la of cos..

H. Hometown?

† Muar, Johor.. [diff from u all ler.. wink**]

I. Favorite indulgence?

† eatin.. ice cream n also chocolate ^^

J. January or July?

† January.. beginning of d yr.. ^^

[erm, j mz only stand for month? cant b sum1 ar?? san.. u got wat i mean??]

K. Kids?

† well, as u all can see.. i dun hav any for now,

while..

i m behaving like a kid even though i m 20 d..

L. Life isn't complete without?

† FnF (fren & Family), $$, my handphone, lappie, internet, msn n OUTING!!

M. Marriage date?

† walao eh.. i duwan to step into d grave tat early lo.. no idea..

N. Number of brothers and sisters?

† hehe.. I'm d ELDEST!!

1 Damn Annoying younger bro n 1 younger sis..

O. Oranges or apples?

† oranges.. but i heartx my green apples too.. >.<

P. Phobias?

† alot ler... n not gud to expose my weakness ler..

Q. Quotes?

† i am who i am, love me for who i m

R. Reasons to smile?

† mayb U r d reason to let me smile..

but..

i agree on san's n cheez's answer..

u DUNIt A REASON TO SMILE WEI!!

jz smile when u wan!

T. Tag 5 people

† ivan, dathxintor, nikko, gary, hooiching

U. Unknown fact about me?

† erm.. unknown side ar??

mayb the SYOK SENDIRI style when i meet san n ivan gua..

i dunno either.. kakaka

V. Vegetable?

† i aint tat picky.. jz i m bit bit choosy...

anything as long as i feel is nice to eat...

W. Worst habits?

† get to b emo easily..

† SLOTH is my biggest sin ever.. hahaha

X. X-ray or Ultrasound?

† no idea... swt!!

Y. Your favorite type of food?

† as long as it is delicious.. n if i m in mood...

Z. Zodiac

† LibRa..

d peace-lover.. n also d indecisive 1..

ok la.. since san say i shall camwhore more.. i think i understand tat she miss me so so much.. n here go my latest ss pic.. hahaa.. san.. wipe away ur saliva when u see tis.. miss ya~~

HeLLo!!

2008-12-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

I'm guilty ler... as in...

i left my blog so dead for so long..

till i saw san babe kip update... ish...

i like vy long time din update d wor...

wat had happened to me ler..

seldom ss

seldom camwhore

seldom update my blog d...

y???

bcoz

my life is so bored n lifeless la..

no outing

n it is not happening at all

wat m i goin to blog about lar????

xmas is jz around d corner.. yet i dun hav any plan on tat~~ so u guys there.. any plan den update me lar.. i m pity enuf ler... no place to go ler.. sobz~~

year 2008 is goin to end... look through tis year... actually quite alot things had happened.. d happy 1, d sad 1, d nice 1, d sux 1... for those things tat not nice n sad 1.. i had learned to accept.. those cant kill me can make me strong.. although i cant stop them from happened but i can learn to accept n adapt... for d happy 1, i kip it as memories lo!!

so.. let's start... erm.. thx tat i did work in PCS from jan to march.. altho it is a very short period.... 3 months.. i had noe a bunch of new frens.. who are dey? susan, ivan, darryl n etc etc.... alot alot new experience when joined dem.. ^^ esp wit my san babe.. [ehem ehem. altho her camwhore level has gone severe, yet i will stilla dmit she is my san babe.. wat to do?? wakakaka] but d chance to hang out become lesser when we all start to hav d studylife.. sigh.. summo timing alwiz not chun!! i cant join also.. sob!!!! thx u guys... ^^ nvr regret to noe u all~

from april to sept... ya... i worked in office.. hahaa.. sumwhere i worked before.. office life is boring den the PCS life but... i can go home earlier n dun nit to stand for few hours per day wo.. so still ok ba...

sept... this is when my uni life started... 1st time move out from d hse.. from cant get used to live outside without family till i enjoy d life there... again i get to noe alot alot new frens from diff places... dwei,shawn,jackie from east malaysia.. sabahan n sarawakian~~ ahhahaa... den brian, kok kian n xhik from penang... joselynn, serena, Onion n so on... haha.. u guys.. reli make my life more colourful~~ ^^

den my sem break start from nov n last for 2 months... back to work again in office.. but yet still so so so expectong d study life to start again.. life is so so dull n lifeless.. sob...

anything special for this year?

erm.. i think is the 20yrs old bday celebration.. ya... i m 20 tis yr.. the 1st time i celeb my bday wit a gang of frens in ktv.. ^^ n also d 1st time i hang out till so late wit dem... went to ktv at d nite b4 my bday.. went around 10 and sang till 4am for d next day... so i passed my 20th bday at the vy 1st moment wit my frens in ktv.. rite chun chun at 12am, they wished me.. thx.. especially to jason.. who came to cheras jz to celeb my bday wit me.. thx alot alot.. ^^ n also thx to my coursemates... thx to brian tat asked d permission from lecturer n asked d whole class to sing me d bday song.. thx.. thx to joselynn n serena tat walked to secret recipe to buy me cake.. thx every1 tat shared for d cake n every1 tat wish me..thx!! muaxies.. love u guys... jz a lil to feel guilt.. my san babe not wit me ta time.. sigh...

the 1 months of uni life reli let i see another side of d study life.. haha.. is reli much more diff from the secondary sch life... v spend more time wit frens.. wat i experienced thru tat 2 months ler?? hahaa.. din sleep for whole nite but lepak in mamak wit frens.. crap this n tat... got o mcd at mid9 jz to eat d ice cream... went to giant hypermarket together to buy ingredients for dinner... went to "lil genting" it benard n susan n my frens... went to pasar mlm at ard 2am in d morning.. swt sial.. hahaa.. another GREAT thing... me, Elene ran around the swimming pool for 3 rounds.. ya.. laugh as loud as u gus wan... how can i ever do tat idiot things.. wont repeat it in next sem d.. hahaha... 2 months aint short but aint long too.. but i appreciate it.. thx for every1 tat take part n appear in my life yeah..

k la.. tis is a vy vy long post d.. got to bek to work d.. shall update again soon...

p/s: thx for san babe tat stay beside me n comfort me whenever i had any problem.. ^^

9 words women use...

2008-12-09T13:12:00.000+08:00

1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4.)Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5.)Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguingwith you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6.) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7.)Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8.)Whatever : Is a women's way of saying FUCK YOU!

9.)Don't worry about it, I got it : Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.Then you RUN!

this is wat san babe send to me.. jz share it here... kinda true...

sien

2008-11-28T11:46:00.000+08:00

28th of nov.. time flies? i dunno.. i jz feel the time passed vy vy vy slow.. still another month only i goin start my new sem.. sigh.. long way to go weiiiiiii....................

lifeless... n tat is y no update in my blog. sigh.. I WAN GO OUT wei!!! any 1 out thr wan bring me o join me for any outing??

sIEN sIAL~~~~~~

listen to your heart...

2008-11-28T08:45:00.000+08:00

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.
Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mention but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic, the beauty that's been when love was wilder than the wind.

笨的可以

2008-11-28T08:42:00.000+08:00

听你开心说着你的事情
我有一种莫名心跳反应
夜深人静时候突然想到你
没有原因没有逻辑谁能说明
总以为我们是地球的南北两极
直到分开旅行我才明白
有好多的话想说给你听
是我笨得可以我们早就相遇
我说服我自己这一切只是友情
是你让我相信两颗心没有距离
我才发现原来我爱着你
总是爱捉弄我寻我开心
从来没有想过会喜欢你
也许爱情就是没什么道理
缘分来临措手不及谁看得清
直到分开旅行我才明白
有好多的话想说给你听
是我笨的可以我们早就相遇
是我笨的可以没看穿你的心
还以为这只是爱情无聊的恶作剧
是我笨的可以我终于面对自己
勇敢证明我是真的爱你
我是真的爱你

问

2008-11-22T09:38:00.000+08:00

爱情真的是甜蜜的吗？
也许吧

无奈的是
我一直
与那份甜蜜擦身而过

与你的联系
逐渐少了
想念你的次数
却有增无减

你真的有事在忙吗？
还是那只是一个借口？

我
不想问
不敢问
不能问
害怕那会是一个
我不能接受的答案
所以选择了逃避
可是却又不断地胡思乱想
我究竟该怎么办？

当泪滴再次顺着脸庞滑下时
是否也意味着是时候放弃了？

:+: 紫雁 :+:

ego kills

2008-11-19T11:37:00.000+08:00

erm.. d words kinda blur rite? jz saw tis thru a mail.. nvm.. i will type it out so u all can see tat...

如果你很爱很爱一个人，

可是难免有时候会受你所爱的人的气，

你可能会很气很气，

但是不论如何气，

不要去争输赢，争面子，

要记得，不论如何，

自己都不要做一个后悔的人，

宁可让一步，

只因你内心深处明白，

他是一个值得你爱的人.

roughly.. all these are about.. erm.. dun lose sum1 u like/love jz bcoz of ur ego o temper.. dun go think who is d winner o loser.. when u r d 1 tat tolerate, doesn't mean u r d loser.. jz tat u choose to tolerate as u understand u r tolerating wit sum1 tat worth for it.. no E- G -O!!

emO

2008-11-13T16:39:00.000+08:00

i jz wish to hide myself in d corner now.. pls.. let i do so..

-hAppY eNdinG???- mayb u think so.. but not for mie..

gosh...

all came bek again...

those annoying feelin...

i m insecure rite now.

u knew i getting insecure easily

u knew i afraid to b alone

yet u left me

to face d darkness

on my own..

t.h.a.n.k.s

爱不疚

2008-11-11T10:10:00.000+08:00

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後能全然退後你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後或会走
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然後就放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

遥远是宇宙静静在背後去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全多舍不得仍然是放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

放手我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透
放手至可拥有

十全十美?

2008-11-07T09:55:00.000+08:00

如意郎君何處覓？
有才華的長得醜，
長得帥的掙錢少，
掙錢多的不顧家，
顧了家的沒出息，
有出息的不浪漫，
會浪漫的靠不住，
靠得住的又太窩囊………

漂亮的女人不下廚房，
下廚房的不溫柔，
會溫柔的沒主見，
有主見的沒女人味，
有女人味的亂花錢，
不亂花錢的不時尚，
時尚的不放心，
放心的沒看頭。

果然，没有人是十全十美的

random

2008-11-06T09:33:00.000+08:00

long time nvr post anything d.. randomly i din do anything special la.. jz bored.. last weekend went to kuala selangor lo.. for sure is wit my family la.. went all d way till sabak bernam.. can i say tat is jz a 1 day trip?? as in we jz went there for ntg.. sat in d car... swt!!! that is d effect after d petrol price drop.... den went bek to sekinchan to hav lunch.. due to the tiredness of sitting in d car, i dun reli camwhore... but.. i took d pic of d paddy field... feel like tat....

oh yeah... went to Dragon-i wit yong n peng last week.. forget which day d.. @.@ went there for tea time?? wakakaka... 3 ppl spend ard rm50 la.. still considerate rig? i duno... hahaa... but see.. the pau in pig shape...

p/s: san n ivan!! dun this 2 piggie look like u 2?? wakakaka... way much adorable???

went to midvalley on saturday... to get my jacket... yeah... from tropicana life... hahaha.. jz feel wan get tat.. this devil thing cost ard rm100.00... swt....

went to korean bbq in BTK wit colleague, ah siang... hav an overlook on tis...

erm.. still ok la.. dun reli feel tat gud.. wakakaka.. but exp i think... 2 ppl rm 86 wo... nvm.. next time go try better thing...

ss in office~~ but tat mirror got dirt la.. sob~~

ou... started to work d... as in office job.. so i free on weekend n nite... so any plan pls do find me out!! i gotta rot in hse due to the boredness d la.

sigh.. i miss my uni life.. >.<

CRUSH

2008-10-31T23:08:00.000+08:00

Oooh, Whoa, Whoa, Ooh, Ooh, Whoa, Whoa
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch your breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush aint going away, going away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, And Ever

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch your breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush aint going away, going away

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch your breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush aint going away
This crush aint going away
Going away
Going away
Going away
Going away
Going away

SPORT~

2008-10-26T14:31:00.000+08:00

ya.. continued from the backdated post~~

the last paper was on 22nd oct.. n it ended at 5.30pm.. so again i b bulb to join my frens out.. i duwan b bulb, but... pity me.. went to the jusco.. balakong1? i not sure.. i jz knew tat day was JCARD day.. n saw alot ppl there... oo... den way bek to cheras after had dinner... den i was left alone at home lo.. as in i dun go b bulb d.. hahaha... created a new record tat day.. i din sleep whole nite lo.. den went to mcd for mcd breakfast wit rays, jackie n also brian.. we all din sleep for whole nite~~ [salute!!] den went for badminton ard 9am.. ya.. thurs morning...

venue: MPH in angkasa condo

laipeng, jeffrey, rachel, elene, jackie

ya.. WEIRD.. they played badminton.. ok la.. i m d lousiest among dem.. i duno play.. as i anti sport.. but.. THEY ALL bullied me tat day.. kononnya teach me.. let i ran here n there.. sobz... freaking tired.. n sweat alot tat day la.. i gotta dehydrated gua.. i think.. i had used up my 1 yr stamina on tat day.. hahaha... in between, sky do join us for awhile.. n they played ping pong.. erm.. okie.. i duno tat also.. i admit.. i m noob in every sport.. i CLAIMED again.. E-V-E-R-Y!! but overall.. tat day was kinda fun.. hahaha... jackie n jeffrey are ok in tat.. ok? hahaha.. for me is pro la.. jaajaja... den u guys shall noe d consequences rig? ya... 5 of us... feel tired after tat... hahaha.. n pain for sure!! summo.. jackie n me.. din sleep whole nite.. yet he so semangat in tat.. siao~~ i think v enjoyed that?? mayb.. hahaha... den bek to klang afterward... due to the tiredness n no more energy.. i hit my bed at 8 something..i tot i edi counted sleep earlier d.. who noe there is sum1 slept earlier den me... hahaha... i dun like sport bcoz i dunno.. but i like to join, een jz b a spectator there.. bcoz.. i jz love hang out wit my frens.. sat there n looked at dem will b fun too!!

F-R-E-N-S ROXX

bekdated posts

2008-10-26T13:19:00.000+08:00

okie.. i think.. i got influenced by san babe d... since when i start to hav d habit of posting backdated posts? LOL... after i knew her i think?? *wink wink* i m not blaming lo.. is jz i learned from her..wakakaka...okie.. wat i wanna post... i glanced thru my phone... tried to think bek according the pics.. hahaa.. okie.. it seems like.. i din post anything after my bday.. okok...

erm.. since i m taking the short sem, so i had my final on 21 and 22 of october lo.. den now i m officially free d.. hahaha.. 2 months holiday.. is long enuf for me to rot in hse!!! my last class was on 14 of october but we still bek to carry our lab on 16th october lo.. so last session... for sure.. hahaha.. v did camwhore again!!! posing in b lab after d lab session~~

group photo wit our 'cute' lab tech

oh yea... so basically v all are ss members... all of us took photo rig.. but not fair le.. y i tak pasal pasal to b known as SS club president?? aiyo.. i din take part tat frequent le... DWEI, dun u try throw d position to me lo!!! i duwan~~~ i say... I DUWAN!!!!!!!

although i bek to klang on thurs but again i went to cheras wit joselynn on fri jz to pass up our lab report... OMG!! last min job.. ya.. is my fault lo.. n thx to d dude-jackie tat help us complete the last question.. hahaha... so here is some ss pics tat i took in car.. yaya.. i took d pic when joselynn drove.. poser!! can pose when drive summo~~~

oo... n again.. i wanna STRESS that.. i m not ss leader.. bcoz.. another 2 cuties are way much ss den me.. see!!

so.. my short sem end d.. erm.. knew quite a bunch of new frens.. nice to noe dem.. hahhaa.. all of dem are nice n caring~~ hahaa.. joselynn, serena n dwei that will alwiz ss together, fahad tat alwiz cool but kind.. shawn tat come out wit wise advise sometimes.. but all d time.. nid to prevent he trick us.. hahaha.. sky tat alwiz joke wit us.. nicky, onion that play ard wit us.. brian that can joke ard too.. n d banana, jackie... that help me to settle my report.. he is kind and caring.. hahaha.. since he n sky will help me to tapao mango ice for me due to my laziness to walk.. wakakaka.. n also sent me d medicine.. haha.. thx.. but he is d 1 tat seducing me to eat ice cream together le.. so blame on him for my sick!! NICE TO NOE U ALL~~~

erm.. do i look alike wit my mum?? hahaha...

n last but not missed...

the latest me...

hahaha....

HOLIDAY

2008-10-25T17:37:00.000+08:00

WooHooo~~~~

yaya.. i jz done my 1st sem for my yr 1... is a short sem.. so it is only 7 weeks lo... time FLIES... so i now having my holiday again... swt... is a long long break... a 2 months holiday.. wat i goin to do?
din reli update my blog last few weeks.. bcoz STRESS.... my final.. STUDIED at last min.. so end up cant online n blogging.. but stille nd up duno do.. stupid la.. d questions so hard... i m not att smart.. i duwan take supplementary paper la.. >.<
today is just 2nd day i bek to klang.. but i miss my life in cheras.. miss frens there... swt... my heart like not stayin at my home... how come??

will update soon~~

一个人

2008-10-13T03:40:00.000+08:00

孤单落莫时
总会期盼有个伴
对于爱情更是充满憧憬
也会叹息
为何身旁的朋友都成双成对
而自己却形单影只
一个人的生活这么难熬吗?
未必…
其实
一个人也可过得很充实
一个人的生活自由自在
一个人的生活无拘无束
一个人的生活也可过得逍遥…
一个人也好
成双成对也罢
只要日子过得快乐
又何必在乎这些呢??

~紫雁~

2008-10-13T03:31:00.000+08:00

刚刚看了朋友的 blog…
原来身边有不少朋友为情烦恼
情, 让人欲罢不能…
* * * *
在 <西游记> 里,
原为天蓬元帅的猪八戒
因私恋嫦娥, 罪犯天条
而被罚历千世情劫…
猪八戒的经典名句:
“多情自古空余恨,
此恨绵绵无绝期”
* * * *
其实,
在我们甫出生的一杀那
命运之轮就已随着
我们那微弱的呼吸
开始转动了…
随着年龄的增长
我们也从
嘻嘻哈哈的童年
步入了青涩的青春期
转眼之间
也到了情窦初开的年纪
开始为爱情烦恼…
为爱伤心掉泪的人
不计其数
为爱而笑颜逐开的人
也不在话下…
是喜是悲
一切都命中注定
* * * *
实际上,
人生究竟是命中注定
或
人定胜天呢?
* * * *
在错的时间遇上错的人, 是一场荒谬
在错的时间遇上对的人, 是一声叹息
在对的时间遇上错的人, 是一段心伤
在对的时间遇上对的人, 是一生幸福

:+: 紫雁:+:

爱情是盲目的吗

2008-10-13T03:27:00.000+08:00

爱情是盲目的吗?
爱情会让人变傻吗?
也许,
爱上一个人时
我们总会无法
保持冷静…
* * * *
大家都知道
强摘的瓜不甜
强求的爱情是不会幸福的
单方面付出的爱情
是不会有结果的…
固执的等待
只会换来
疲累的身心
一身的伤…
* * * *
喜欢的人不出现
出现的人不喜欢
可悲的是
我为我爱的人伤心
即使他伤我再深
让我红了眼眶
我还是会笑着原谅
从不会学习放手
眼看爱我的人
虽然知道我心有所属
但仍然毫无怨言地
为我赴汤蹈火
虽然心存感激
但却无法接受他
为什么?
为什么要让我身处这样的困境
我不想放手
但残酷无情的事实
不断地提醒我
一直以来
只是我在一厢情愿…
我不想伤害爱我的人
因为我知道
被深爱的人所伤
那痛是永无止境的
自己已尝过那份苦涩
要我如何忍心
让无辜的你
也尝试那椎心的痛呢?

:+: 紫雁:+: