ntG sPeCiaL

i dun feel like growing up.. as i getting more n more emo when grow up.. i duwan.. T.T

emO?

L-O-V-E

tis is how ouR heart beat when v see d 1 v heartx?? mayb...

~pEaCe~

tarot? to believe or not??

well.. this morning i was kinda free so i logged in to my facebook.. n i went to play the tarot.. but through d game.. u cant choose to ask bout career o wateva.. d tarot only for love.. so ma simply chose a card... tis is wat got...

審判 - 復活 (正位)

塔羅牌義
這是一張甚帶基督教的色彩。在末日的審判中，死去的人會復活，同時會被審判其罪。
愛情運勢
這一段時間裡，你們從錯誤中找到彼此相愛的方式。你會跟以前的戀人破鏡重圓。還沒有戀愛的你，愛情會得到愛情使者的祝福，產生愛的奇跡，獲得絕佳的運氣。

together wit tat card, i got the definition of tis card too.. but.. it is in chinese for sure.. i jz simply brief it in english so my susan babe can und.. since she is a banana tat alwiz claim she is pure chinese...wakakaka...

d card meaning, tis is a judgement..on d last day of judgement, d dead people will alive again.. [ghost a? die d can alive de??], n d judgement will take place.. (i dun get d meaning.. ish..), who care?? i jz wan noe d love luck ma..

so for love, during tis period, u all find d way to love each other through d mistakes u all did. u will be together back wit ur ex lover. for those who still single.. u all will get bless n there will b a miracle.. n u all gotta to get extremely GUD LUCK...

er.. together wit ex again?? i tot suppose b no turning back de?? n... din say clearly which ex also.. who noe la?? n to blif anot?? i dunno.. but i like to play tis.. hahaha.. chill~~

1st chinese blog-情绪

压抑已久的情绪
只能在无人的深夜里发泄

怨你吗？
不懂。。。想起过去只觉得心好痛
曾经的真心被践踏得一文不值
卑微地曲下膝
把心的碎片慢慢地
一片一片地拾起来
那破碎不堪的心
再也拼凑不回了。。。。
那心还能要吗？？

转身离去的你
没看见我眼角溢出的泪。。。
我紧紧地捂住嘴
不让自己哭出声。。。
眼泪模糊了视线。。。
心仍在痛吗？
为了什么在痛？
为了你的无情吗？
为了哀悼那已逝去的爱吗？
* * * *
好想你
被你伤得伤痕累累
还是学不会保护自己
还是无法对你免疫
傻傻的想念
曾经对我呵护备至
而如今却伤我最深的你
你过得好吗？
应该很好吧？
她应该能给你
我无法给你的快乐吧？
你应该已经淡忘我了。。。
对你而言
我是一个无理取闹的女生吧？
忘了我也好。。。如果这是你想要的
* * * *
我默默地
学着忽视有关你的一切
那破碎的心
会有痊愈的那一天吗？

now

i nid some1 beside me now
to listen to me now..
to accompany me now..

i wan to go seaside now

i wan to shout as loud as i can now

to release my emo now

i wan to b alone now

because i wan to wipe my tears now

duwan any1 to see i m crying now

[i m so indecisive, i hope sum1 next to me now to comfort me. but i duwan any1 to see my weak side.. oh god~ ]

*bAng WaLL*

*****

i miss the time i can cry in mummy's hug.. but now i am goin to b 20.. cant b liddat.. duwan make mummy worry n get nag from her.. so i can only endure all these on my own.. but i aint tat strong.. i nid to rely on otherS too.. i wan to go back to my childhood can?? there is no sadness.. i wont hav to think everything on my own... mum, i duwan to grow up.. can i?

emo+sick....

bored monday~

i seriously dun like monday..

it was like forcing myself to get up n go to work..

pity me >.<''

my mind was reli blur.. blank.. i dunno wat i wan.. dun ask me wat i wan.. dun ask me figure tat k?? i reli dunno wat i wan..how?? i m such indesicive rite now... stupiak, i noe i gotta put d blame on who.. jz stop to ask me make choice dn can d.. pls??

i tot time can make ppl forget but not reli.. kinda long din c d stupiak d. but still miss him like hell.. *bAng WaLL...*

y i so useless de?? i noe y la.. i nid something o sum1 to distract me but there is no.. so only i so free go think bout tat.. ish.. cis!!!

{sHoPPiNg}

tat is wat i nid now...

happy day?

Ooo… today din get to blog in office because I was kinda busy.. one of d colleagues went for holiday..she went Langkawi.. so I hav to take over her job… pity me.. nvm.. as long as she rmb getting em come choc den I will b ok de…kakakaka….

I went jusco wit my mum after I worked.. since my bro n sis had their own programme… so I “lepak” in jj wit my mum.. bring her walk here n there… den I went to PCS to get my cheque… saw pcs workers in t shirt… any sales tat goin on?? I feel miss the time I worked there.. Well.. waited for Kenneth.. n followed him go in d office to get my cheque.. is a just a RM 60 cheque.. I went twice for tat… wat the… after signed tat.. dumb Kenneth said “eh.. u better dun go counter la.. u show d face like tat.. cause my sales to drop only eh..” I was like @.@ I feel scolding wat the… d sales figure not related to tat k?? summo.. I din show any face eh.. I looked normal.. I swear~~~

Hahaha… today is my brother’s bday… n he supposed b d 1tat get present rite?? But I m d 1 get new watch.. wakakkakakaa…. Was window-shopping wit mum.. showed her d odm.. n she said not nice… den saw d casio.. den till last I showed her d Esprit watch tat I saw wit my fren d day.. she said nice…. So… hahahaa… I asked mum can I buy tat… she said she not goin pay for tat… well.. tat mean on my own expenses.. I reli like tat.. summo is purple colour inside de eh… erm.. to b o not to b… rm 399 wit 10% discount…consider for few second.. ok.. I took it… ahahhaa.. so I got new watch… den went home.. hahahaha….

my new watch~~
Well… I told my mum I wont simply buy thing again.. as I bought new handphone, notebook, watch, those clothes… I spent a lot d.. mum.. I will try to control… hahaha…
Thx mum… I love u~~

fRidAy~

today is Friday..

once n once i start to feel working is DaMMMnnn boring...

but if i stop now.. den i gotta stay at home without doin anything,

tat gotta b more bored..

how??

well.. tml is 24 of may.. my bro's bday.. although i kinda dislike him, alwiz got argue wit him.. i wonder is it v 2 cant stay peace for 1 day?? in my mind, d most also v can stay peacefuly for few hours only.. soon v gotta argue n again again repeat d routine.. wat the~~

but tis yr he is in f5.. i wonder wat kind of result he going Get for his SPM.. alwiz play truant.. see la.. i bet tat he cant get more than 3as, if he can.. i will do wateva he asks..not to say i look down on him but even my mum also k? mum say if he can score 5as den goin giv him rm1k wo... swt!! i get 9as ta time she din even giv me a cent!!! so i asking mum for tat.. who noe my mum said.. "aiyo.. u think ur bRo can get meh? dun fail den ok lo.. i noe he cant get only i say those reward de.." =.=" my mum was so 'cute'..

till last... happy bday la stupid bro.. grow up.. dun argue wit me.. faster go get ur license n b my driver.. FAST!!!!!! if u refuse to take me.. well.. i goin to pray.. to curse.. u fail ur driving test...muahahahha... [i'm evil..]

i hav been adapted to d life without u.. kinda diff.. no ppl tat will sms me 24 hours non-stop anymore.. but i think i get more freedom?? dunno how to describe.. but i can decide all that on my own.. no longer hav to ask u can i do so n so on.. i wont look back.. nvr.. dun dwell in d past.. i look forward for future~

yaya.. bought a new skirt.. later shall go try..

i mean, i bought tat without trying.. dumb rite??

nvm lo.. later after i get home i will try ..

if not nice i will take it n exchange lo....

if it is ok.. den

i goin buy a new shoe for tat..

skirt should match wit high heel..

i goin buy high heel?? lol...

i wont buy high high 1 lo..

wont same as susan..

i wont buy from vincci..hahaha...

but my skirt is somehow pink*purple colour..

my heel should b wat colour??

*shopping!!*

my whole body cells are activated again..

:+:jz for sHoPPinG:+:

mayb this weekend shall go out for tat... hahaa...

IF D SKIRT NOT NICE, NVM...

i still can go shopping to buy other clothes... ahahahha...

gals born to shop??? hahaha...

~eLeNe~

movies~~

i was kinda bored so i online n check for those upcoming movies..

i feel watching "wanted".. it is in june.. any1 wan go along?? den mayb will go for "made of honour" ...

den in july....

The X-files: I Want To Believe

The Mummy 3: Tomb Of The Dragon Emperor

august:

Black Water

The Luckiest Man

den november... my fav movie~~ hahaha... HARRY POTTER.. i must go for tat... even i hav to go alone also i dun mind..

Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince

erm.. mayb i still will go for some movies tat is not listed here.. as i alwiz join n agree on my fren's suggestion.. as long as the story not too bored.. den i will go n watch de.. but i nvr go movie alone.. so.. frens.. pls do join me for those movies i hav listed here k?? muax~~

4.39pm..

well.. since i had been moody from the morning.. now there is finally something tat distract me from tat... F-O-O-D... just out of a sudden.. i feel i wan eat alot things la...

kk.. let me list out wat i wan eat k??

1. suShi... [i asked from yesterday but no1 wan go wit me.. *iSh*]
2. yu yu iCe [got fried chicken summo~~ ]
3. MCd [suddenly so miss d days i worked in pCS.. where i can wat mcd alwiz n easily...]
4. PIzzA.. [i vy long din eat d la.. hawaiian chicken flavour..garlic bread n my yummy mushroom soup...]
5. western food.. [chicken chop la.. i wan eat~~]
6. cheese baked rice o noodles... [i m crazy over cheese]
7. spaghetti.. [miss tat..]
8. steamboat.. [alamak.. last 3 weekend i also eating tis.. but y i dun feel fed up de a??]
9. baskin robbin ice cream [aboy still owe me ya.. must pay back]
10. erm.. d last a... i kinda miss d mee hun ke eh.. long tiome din eat d... ish ish ish~~

see... now my mind is all full wit food.. how can b?? yest only my mum said i fatter d.. i dun blif so i went on d weighing scale.. OMG~~ my weight increased d.. 1kg.. i jz told my mum i wan diet den... but see la now.. all food.. evil... seducing me... ish... **geramnya** but nvm la.. put d diet plan aside lo.. as u all noe.. now china gto alot victims eh.. they wan eat also no food to let dem eat lo.. den v summo say wan diet here.. isn't tat sound sarcastic to dem.. so.. i terminate d plan first.. continue tat later.. hahaha... can eat den jz go ahead~~ susan babe..wan tag along???

eAt eAt eAt~~~ yes!

continued..

ya.. i shouldn't care about u anymore.. i shall learn to neglect u.. dun let u affect my mood tat easily again.. but can i do tat???

L-O-V-E is something sweet,
L-O-V-E is something nice,
L-O-V-E is a skill tat's learned,
not pickep up on d streets.
the one who teaches how to love often leave out an important part..
they dun teach how to FORGET and tat leads to a
bRoKEN hEaRt

~eMO wannA be~