不知足

昔日的我

很单纯, 很幼稚

现在的我

较情绪化…

但唯一没变的是

我还是那么容易流泪

只是对哭的见解不一样了

以前的我认为哭是懦弱的行为

现在的我却认为

不能哭的人比常哭的人还要痛苦

因为哭能解放心里的压力及悲哀

但是我心里却有份遗憾

因为往昔的我,

比现在的我大方, 疑心较少

虽然现在的我长大, 学着成熟了

但我却比以往小气, 疑心重

难道人在得到一样东西后,

就会失去了另一样东西吗?

我试着找回以往的天真, 大方

却找不回…

也许,

人越想得到一样东西

就越会失去它…

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其实每个人的生命都会有遗憾

为了让沉重的生活变得轻盈

只有不让自己与那些缺憾正面相对

所以不是每一次的逃避都是因为懦弱

* * * *

针未抵达最深处

不知觉的痛得以证明

付出的只是霎那的深情

不足以成立任何内心曾经的承诺

唯有

让它一一成为过去

然后渐渐消失

现在的我

只想学习仙人掌

为自己筑起一座堡垒

在别人伤害我之前先保护自己

提醒自己

其实我是个幸福的人

只是不知足

~紫雁~

累

有心却无力

有泪却不能流

有口却说不出声

原来

我一直高估自己

把手放开原来不简单。。。

舍得， 舍得

有舍才有得

我不舍的话

你哪来的得？

我真的真的好累。。。

不变的仍然是

当我开始依赖某个人时

那人都会离我而去。。。

无奈。。。

dong dong qiang!!

weeeeeee....

here i m again....

yaaaa.. CNY is coming..

but wth i gt a test on tml, where i din study at all yet..

god aaaaaa......

willl burn mid9 oil tonite den i m free to enjoy my 1 week holiday jor..

n.. i went for nail art... hahaa.. ya.. for cny...

blur?? perhaps tis 1 is better...

i m so so in d holiday mood!!

will update again once i gt d time.. LOL

i m so LOST!!

m i being too mean?

i dun think i m..

i m jz treating u all wit d ways u guys used to treat me..

i wanna b gud to u guys too..

but how u all response??

as tho i m an outsider..

u guys jz being unfair...

y things seem so diff?

bias...

is d only word tat i can think of...

i duwan to b mean to u all.. but..

how m i goin b gud to u when i knew u all like to talk behind me?

ya,

call me petty den!

darknesssss

sob... i think.. i was not in a vy good luck month or year... sigh.. planned a so called surprise but end up tak jadi... everything is done d, but a problem just sud pop out den everything gone... i just cant defeat d destiny o fate?? i jz wish tat i m able to give a lil surprise to a fren.. yet tak jadi also.. useless me?? sigh... feelin down all the while... i can only kip d plan till next time d... sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

missing a friend...

i found out tat everytime when i was down. i feel like talkin to you..

as tho u r d only 1 tat will understand wat m i goin to tell...

as tho only u r d only 1 tat i can trust

as tho u r d 1 tat ale to cheer me up...

i miss u alots... hope u r doin fine... take care...

PISSED!

i dun like to wait..
i f*ckin hate waiting..

n today.. i waited for 30mins w/o bein informed. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

m i losing temper over small thing? =(

xmas fever?

everyone is busy planning for xmas, rite?
hmmm.. i feel like joining my fren's party but too bad i cant make it...
argh... wat to do? alr agreed on another bunch of frens earlier..

internhsip goin to finish... ntg special reli happen.. life still tat bored.

where r u, santa claus?
i wan a white xmas laaaaaa

26/11

i m still emo as alwiz.
i cant solve d probs tat i m facing,
but can only accept it.
i dunno wat i can do thus i decided not to do anything.
i can only hope for d best.
god.. if u can hear me.. pls help me..

since my mood is so moody all the while..
i found tat i can only be cheerful when i talked to some of my frens tat i can trust.
n my mood becum better when i watched d korean drama,
yeap. i watched d BOYS OVER FLOWERs, over n over again..
but still dun get bored..
watching the cute gal n those yummy boys and also d storyline... i smiled.

i dun ask much, but i jz hope things get better pls...

WtF

FRIENd stands foR??

ya.. tis is wat so called FREN will do..
stabbing u without ur notification..

i m sick of tis... y i will think for u but u jz nvr put me into d consideration??

sorry to be rude... but... tis time.. jz bear wit me.. WTF... wat the hell r u thinkin.. u bitch!! i fucking hate d life now.. tis is how u treat fren.. i SHALL remember...

i m reli tired..
i lose d sense of judging...
i dunno wat is fren anymore...
i fucking hate crying...
but y m i alwiz doin tat??
i wish for a shoulder...
who will be my crying shoulder?