Saturday, May 21, 2011

No again

this time he nt only reject me but ice cream as well. if he reli dun fancy of icecream den please dun let me see the pictures of the past.

I would only feel down to noe that u can tolerate wit her even u dun like, but reject me when i asked. and yet still wanna tell me that u wont eat icecream wit any1 anymore. u noe wat u mean by ur sentence? it sounds like only she can make u change n try d icecream even u dun like it. but u wont do the same for me.

u alwiz think i wan u do exactly the same wat u did to her. it is not wat u did, is the heart. Just dun make me feel u used to sacrifice alot for the past but u refused to be for now. ya. i m regret. to read the blog. i shud have not read it so i wont noe how sweet u two were. n how much u did for her.

which gal dun like ice cream? y u can be considerate and join her but ask me to find gal frens to go eat tat? u can reject but why u nid to make it sound like she is d special one for u so u would try but can turn me down directly? cant u gimme some dignity?

guessed that this scene just would nvr happen for me. not even in dream. how sweet when a couple can take a pic like tis. n u tell me wat? BF that would acc gf for ice cream and eat that tgt is not sissy, but they are man. just a bite will do. is the joyness of sharing. who dun like to share their fav thing wit the loved one? how am i goin to share since u just seem like dislike my fav thing?

u alwiz say i m demandin and never get enough. but u nvr und how much i will giv away jz for u. u dun like icecream? fine, i can stop it too. but can u just dun make me feel u will only try for her? Alot things i dun like but still i try to accept. that is d diff btw us, i dun like anythin bout u o ur hobby i will try to accept, but if u dun like den u will only give me A BIG NO.

u cant ctrl ur ego den u expect i can ctrl mine? i m arrogant n ego too. how can u expect i throw mine away whenever u kip reject me? i have to take rejection yet noe i m ntg to make u to tolerate wit me.


sorry my dear icecream. Seem like i have to cut down my addiction to u. I knew u r d best thing for me whenever i feel emo o stressed. but i hope more on sharing the same thing wit him. so when i am wit him, den i nid folo his taste. so i think i cant order that when out wit him. since he dun like n i dun think i like to sit thr n eat alone while lookin at him. how nice it would be if he can join me.



ya.. Elene.. NO MORE ICE CREAM for u.

for u, u alwiz think i wanna replace her. i jz wan u wipe her off. u did too much for her, n i would feel i am ntg. i nt imitating her either. i just reli like icecream. so u think wat? i followed her den u would do d same. HOLYCRAP. i just duwan u make her special in ur mind o heart. i will jealous.

it is not never enuf. i saw wat u did n i felt touched too. but why after i feel touched u wanna say smtg tat would make me feel things still d same? why after all still make me feel i cant beat the past?

alwiz i choose to fight, but d outcome is d same. I will be the 1 changing n giv up on wat i wan. I wish i m nt naive oso. den i can be realistic n practical. Did u ever see my effort den?

Monday, May 16, 2011

i m the idiot.

Isn't tat i already said i will never hope for anythin anymore?
Shud have noe d date dun mean much for u,
y even i knew u got class on fri
still i hope u will bek at here for me?
by d moment u say u wont bek
d heart feel so sour
n tears roll down.

till last, still u wont cum bek for me on d date.

all these are in expectations, but y m i still feelin sad?
i hope n pray,
but it dun cum true.
LOA? it jz fkin dun work.
u r mean to me.

p/s: i hate when i cry like a kid, esp when it is bcoz of u.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

why

Why izzit still d same after so long?
why i dun even hav d right to talk?
why u can nvr und wat i feel?
why u dun giv a damn to wat i wan?
why even after i try so hard still u r stingy to giv me wat i wan?
what i ask is nt a hard thing o over for u,
it is jz the most ordinary thing every gal will ever ask.
but why u wan accuse me for demanding?
m i jz not worth for anything after all?
why till now still u wan hurt me?
why tellin me tis n tat?
gettin regret? after i try everythin, regret is d only word u can giv me?

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

pray

birthday passed d.. not a very grand 1 but a special 1. not gonna to blog bout it over here. bcoz i wish to see tat in another blog. of cos i hope it is nt written by myself as well. hoping for miracle??

prayin hard. May god bless my family esp my dad. hope everything will b fine. please. *finger-cross*

Thursday, October 7, 2010

emo swing

i think u wont read this blog before my bday. so i can write at here... u ask me dun tell u wat i wan.. i nvr plan tellin u also. bcoz i knew even i tell u cant make it...

wat i wn?
i wan to b like last time.. u celeb my bday wit me in BBQ plaza..
i wan to go chilli's restaurant to hav a try...
i wan to hear u singing happy birthday song for me..
i wan to eat ice cream wit u..
i wan a nice sweet bday blog entry wit sweet pics..
i wan u by my side...

u said BBQ plaza is nt nice, chilli's is expensive, u dun eat sweet things... ur rejections.. just so mean to me..

i knew y u duwan.. bcoz u did all tis wit her... u went bbq plaza n chilli's wit her.. brought her for icecream n choc..

can i cry?

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

game over?

End of semester break = Game over?

hopefully, this time i will b wrong in this guessing game..

Thursday, September 23, 2010

GUdbye to misery life?

seem like my blog is dead for so long. i m jz so not in mood to update anything or perhaps my life is just too dull, so i got nothing special that i could update here..

went a short trip wit f6 frens to sepang last 2 weeks. it was nice n relaxing. how i wish i can b there alwiz...

i duno y.. but i knew for those who noe wat is goin on, for sure they will say me noob. ya. i dunno y i will go bek to d same person tat ever hurt me. i should stay far from him o as well ignore him but i jz cant make it. haiz. i knew love is better to leave broken den forcing ourselves to make it bek together. i duno. chance has been given, can i see wat i wn? nope.. i jz kip feel down.. i duno y m i giving myself hope while i noe i will b despair soon.. god.. lead me out of d misery life pls..

if i m reli important to u, u should be able show me it to me. But i cant see.. izzit bcoz i m blind? o u jz too stingy to show it to me?

Friday, August 27, 2010

颜色

你喜欢白色

而我只钟情于紫色

在光学里,

白色是由七种颜色组成的

红,橙,黄,绿,蓝,靛,紫

所以你不会为了紫色而停下脚步

红色的你

充满了危险性

再温和的你

也有暴怒 的时候

生气的你

不多话,不理人

让人 手足无措

橙色的你

就像阳光般暖和

听着你的安抚

看着你的微笑

烦恼似乎都不见了

难道你的笑带有魔法?

黄色的你

偶尔扮演着一语惊醒梦中人的角色

就像交通灯的黄色

一闪一闪地警惕着路人

在我迷惑时

你为我照明四周

让我走出迷惘

绿色的你

就像绿色植物般养眼

你温和的语气

让人与你在交谈时感到舒服

也许你就像大树般

散发出让人觉得可靠的感觉吧

蓝色的你

无论是度量还是学识

都像天空般的广阔

你看得很远

从不优柔寡断

在你的面前

我就像是个自找烦恼的小孩

靛色的你

偶然散发出神秘感

想一一的探讨

却裹足不前

因为害怕在搜索的过程中误踩地雷

紫色的你

是我没见过的

那会是罗曼蒂克的你吗?

也许紫色对于白色而言

只是一个

稍闪即逝的过客

Thursday, August 12, 2010

守护天使?



以为是守护天使的他不见了。。。

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

累

It's u purposely wanna get things tat u cant get

这是朋友对我说的话。 是真的吗? 我不知道, 是自己好高骛远吗?我并不贪心, 我只是想追求最好的。。。

累了, 想休息了。。 所有的不如意都挥不去,怎么办?

最后的尝试, 如果你没发现,那我就放弃了。。。
好累了, 不想再一旁继续等待, 所以我总是成为主动的那个。。。
但是我累了, 不想再主动了。。。
如果我不找你而你不会来找我, 那我算知道你的答案了
也许对你而言,我只是一个在普通不过的朋友。。。

我不坚强, 我好累。。。。